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Dream Before Sleep

Bani's PoV
The street breeze kisses my face sweeping my hair away as the car keeps sliding on the pitch. Fifteen minutes....thirty minutes...one hour....a road of silence. Two people sitting beside each other yet as if running for miles away from each other. I close my eyes embracing the silent wind.

"What is it?" Veer's voice startles me.

I look at his side but don't say anything.

"You feeling sick??" Veer asks me again but doesn’t look at me.

"No, I'm fine." I reply.

This time Veer looks at me, "Look Bani, I know you cannot tolerate being empty stomach. Just have something and quit this fasting crap."

Fasting crap?

I roll my eyes getting annoyed, "It might seem like crap to you Veer, but for me it's very important. And don't worry, my empty stomach is way more easier to tackle than to tackle you."

Veer arcs his eyebrows, "Really?? What makes you say so, huh? You never tackle me......umm okay once upon a time you did. But that was the time when you thought I was worth to be called as a human....before I fucked up your life. So, now I guess tackling me is an off topic."

I look away from him for a minute. Why does he do this? Why does he push the past on the face like a shit. Can't he see that I want to move on. Move on with him. The time when he opened his heart for me, I refused it. Now that I want to live there, he's not letting me in? He built an impenetrable wall around his heart just over night?🥺

I fight back the uninvited lump that has formed in my throat. Lump in dry mouth is the worst thing to experience.

"I never thought you as a less than human." I say quietly while staring outside the window.

he didn’t hear what I said earlier I guess  as he continues, "I didn’t know you were this concerned for this whole marriage thing working out that you would actually take a ride of so long with fasting and all."

I'm concerned for you idiot

"Not necessarily everything you know has to be right. Now that the marriage happened, concern should also be here, right?" I say trying not to show my irritation.

"Marriage happened, that's why this concerned, or you were concerned, that's why this marriage happened, huh?" Veer counter backs.

I look at him in shock and confusion, "I don't know what you are talking about."

Veer asks immediately, "Why did you marry me?"

"Why do you keep asking the same question? Is this marriage really bothering you that much??" I snap at him.

"Yes, it is. Why the hell would you want to marry a person who you believe would bring another girl in the bed and cheat on you?" he snaps back.

Air gets stuck in my mid pipe. He's saying this to pinch me about what I said yesterday. I want to shout at him right now, but my body doesn’t permit me, neither does my heart. Why is it so heavy today?

"I don't believe that you would cheat on me like that. I didn’t mean any of those words what I said to you last night. I was too angry to recon what I was saying." I say looking at him hoping that he would look back at me but his eyes never leave the road.

"That's not the answer of my question, Bani." he says not accepting my apology.

Do you answer any of my question??

"I don't want to talk about it now." I look away again.

I take some deep breath as quietly as possible without letting Veer notice it. The heaviness on my chest will make me sick to my stomach. I close my eyes again.