I Do...

Chapter 38

I took a deep breath in and tried to compose myself. Why was I so nervous? I’d known this guy for almost my entire life yet today I was so anxious of being in his presence.  Thoughts kept circling my brain. What happens if I got through these doors and he decided to do a runner? I’d be left there standing alone at my wedding with everyone looking at me. What happens if I turn out to be a terrible wife and he divorces me? I’d be heartbroken. Why am I getting married? This could be the making or breaking of us but at the moment all I can see is the breaking.

I was snapped out of my thoughts when the music began.

“You alright Beck?” My dad said and I became aware that he was still clutching my arm.

I nodded, unable to speech any words. My bridesmaids walked out through the door and I took one deep breath before it was time to follow them out through the door. There was people sitting opposite the door and I began to feel quite self conscious as they stared at me with smiles. But as soon as I was through the door and I could see Liam along with Tony and Jake standing at the altar I began to relax a little.

I guess the fact that he hadn’t already done a runner was reassuring. I laughed inwardly thinking how stupid I was. There was no way he would have done a runner on me. Mainly because he probably would have been too scared to.

Half way along the aisle my dad squeezed my arm tighter. I looked at him with a knowingly smile. He was getting anxious by the fact that he was going to have to give me away any minute. I squeezed his arm reassuringly and he smiled at me but the sadness was still apparent in his eyes. And that of most of my family. My mother and my grandmothers were crying profusely. Honestly you’d think I was being sent to my death the way they were bawling.

Liam was twitching on the spot a rubbing the palm of his hand with his thumb, which he does when he’s nervous. I wanted to hug him tightly but I realised I couldn’t, not yet. Liz, Molly, Faye and Evie stood to the left of Liam and I followed them and stood next to Liam. Handing my bouquet to Aria I took hold of Liam’s hands.

"Dearly beloved, we are gathered together here in the sight of God, and in the face of this congregation, to join together this Man and this Woman in holy matrimony." The Vicar’s words were interrupted by a loud sniffle sounding from my right and me and Liam both looked over to see my Mum wiping her eyes with a tissue. I stifled a laugh and caught my dad’s eye. He rolled his eyes and shook his head.

“Who gives away this woman?” the vicar asked my father.

“I do.” He said almost unwillingly.

“If any man can show just cause, why they may not lawfully be joined together, let him now speak, or else hereafter for ever hold his peace. “

I was certain that this part wasn’t going to affect us in any way until I heard those words come sounding out across the church.

“Yes, I do!”

I swung round in horror to see Cassie waltzing up the aisle towards.

“Hi Becky, sorry to put a dampener on today but I was thinking that you had a right to know what your fiancée was up to on his stag do. And who and why he went missing that night.” I looked at her confused and panicked. I turned back round to see Liam’s face go pale and his palms were becoming sweaty in my grasp.

“Cassie please, not now. You know it was a mistake.” I heard Liam say. I didn’t know what to do. I could feel everyone’s eyes boring into the back of my head as they watched intently as the drama unfolded.

“A mistake? You slept with me!” I opened my mouth to speak but nothing came out. He slept with her? How could he do that?

Why did I think today was going to be completely drama free? I mean I should have guessed everything was a little too rosy. My life is never a walk in the park. I always seem to have to fight for what I want.