Flashes And Palettes | 𝘈𝘳𝘶𝘈𝘯𝘪

07. Silent

*Credits to the owner of the picture above.*

When was the last time you felt so happy? Me? I feel so happy as long as I am with Armin. As long as I am talking to him. Personally, or through the phone. And when was the last time you felt so sad? Me? It was also when I was with Armin. Isn't it funny how the person who can make you feel over the moon can turn you into a crying mess? Isn't it funny how the person who gives you relief can make you feel doubtful?

Isn't it funny that the guy who was all over me, is now all over another girl? But how can I take his dream away from him because of jealousy? Because of fear that maybe someday he'll fall for her and just forget about me. I am afraid that the time will come. The time that the only girl he could only see was Vanessa and Vanessa only.

He needs her. And I can never be her.

I hugged Armin tight as I cry silently beside him. He is still asleep so I made sure to muffle my noises so I wouldn't wake him up and worry him. I continued to cry silently as I listen to his heartbeat. I sniffed a bit and took a deep breath. I was about to sit up but he held my waist tightly and hugged me tightly.

He was asleep and yet it feels like he is comforting me. It feels like he knows about my agony. It feels great you know? Even if he is unaware of how broken I am, it feels like he's cuddling me because he wants to make me feel better. The night is silent as well as my cries. I froze in my place when he suddenly played with my hair a bit. That gesture made me feel safe.

Hurt me in any way you want, and I'll still love you wholeheartedly.

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Today, we are in a fanmeeting of Armin and Vanessa. Before I am in front of the stage and now, I am at the backstage, doing my boyfriend's make-up. I also have a meet-up with my fellow OCEANs. Ocean is the name given to Armin's fans. Well, it was Ocean because of his eyes. That's what he told me.

"You look great, Mr. Arlert." I smiled and looked at his reflection in the mirror. He sneakily held my hand under the table and smiled. He suddenly slipped a ring on my ring finger and I looked at him in shock. "A-Armin..what is this?" I whispered and he only gave my hand a squeezed. He even mouthed 'later', so I just stayed silent. He released my hand from his hold and stood up.

"Thank you, Annie." He smiled.

"I have to go. My fellow OCEANs are waiting for me." I said and left backstage. I went to our meet-up place. I recognized them easily because they are wearing baby blue shirts and headbands with Armin's face as a design. I went to them and they frowned at me.

"You are the president of this fansclub and yet, you are late. I am a little disappointed, Ms. President." A member said jokingly. I smiled and sat beside Mina, who is my friend in highschool.

"Sorry, I have make-up artist duties." I said out of nowhere. Is it appropiate for me to say that? Did Armin tell me to keep it a secret? I don't remember but never mind. What's done is already done. They looked at me with wide eyes and bombarded me with questions.

"Oh my gosh, what's he like? You get to touch his lips? So lucky!" A member said and held my hand. Touch is weak, I get to kiss your idol and even do more than a kiss. I thought and grinned. They probably think I am weird but who cares? I am just amazed at how these people love my boyfriend so much.

"I think I shouldn't give information. That might mean I am invading Arlert's privacy." I simply answered and I frowned.

"I am an engineer but now, I just wanna be Annie's hands." Hitch sighed and we all laughed. "By the way, the show's about to start. Let's go!" Hitch exclaimed and we all stood up, rushing to the venue of the fanmeeting. When we reached there, Armin is already at the stage. He was sitting at a chair and there is a microphone in front of him. He is holding a guitar and he is smiling softly.