Flashes And Palettes | 𝘈𝘳𝘶𝘈𝘯𝘪

09. Great Actress

"Oh my gosh I'll have to spend a month with you again?! Seeing your face every fucking morning. Dude! That's bad. And you have a fucking house with your man why are you staying with me?" Mikasa asked as she carried my luggages to her guest room. If I say it, she'll be mad at Armin. If I don't say it, she'll be mad at me. But if I explain thoroughly, my bestfriend will understand.

"Vanessa is gonna share the house with Armin. We have a guest room there so they will not share the same room. I am sure of that. Armin is loyal." I answered. Mikasa slowly dropped the luggage and looked at me, her face in a frown.

"You can literally just stay there while Vanessa is also staying there. Boom! Problem solved." Mikasa always makes everything look and sound easy. It's probably because she's so strong, and she went through a lot that she can already handle herself. She's too strong that she sometimes forgets there are people who wants to help get through what she's going through right now.

"I literally have the title 'The Girlfriend Who Cannot be Publicized' in our group. And do you really think I will bring Armin down with me in my hole of agony? No, Mikasa. I won't. I am not someone to be proud of having." I said and smiled at her. It was forced so I heard a tsk from her..

"I am literally so proud I have you as my bestfriend. Don't say that to yourself, okay? Don't let your past ruin your present. Keep on moving forward. Move on, and you'll feel a lot more better." Mikasa adviced and I nodded. She makes it sound so easy to move on. How does she do it? How is she so strong? I wanna be like that too. Someone who can easily move up in life. Because right now, everything is going downhill. Except the fact that, I am marrying Armin next year.

"I will." I promised and she smiled at me, genuinely. I really need Mikasa in my life. I might be independent, but I need her. I will always need her in my life. She's my salvation. My ride or die.

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"You're wearing your ring. I like it. Where did you buy it?" Vanessa asked and smiled..fakely. It's bright and disturbing at the same time. Her smile looks forced. She might be a great actress but I can see clearly that she is faking her kindness. Or is it just my trust issues attacking?

"I don't know where my boyfriend bought it. It's my engagement ring." I shared and her smile disappeared. I noticed the sudden change on her expression. It turned into a frown yet, it turned back into a happy one. She creeps me out.

"Really? Congrats!" She said with a fake cheerful tone and left. She approached her manager and she explained things to him. I gulped when I saw her notice that I was watching her but she smiled at me and looked back at her manager who's busy talking.

"Annie!" I heard Armin call me. I approached him and he smiled at me. He even tugged my hair that was blocking my face. I flinched from his touch and he looked at me, confusion painted on his face.

"You don't want anyone seeing what you did, right? It might cause a ruckus, Armin. I don't want to bring you down." I said. He nodded and he smiled forcefully. "I am sorry. I am just paranoid right now. I don't feel so good, I am sorry, Armin." I apologized and looked down. I just sense that something bad will happen. But I guess it's nothing. My guts are mostly wrong.

"Do you want to go home? I mean, I can do my own make-up. If you don't feel well I can call Mikasa to pick you up so you won't have to call an Uber." Armin offered but I declined. I will just stay here and keep me busy on him. Because I know that if my mind is vacant, my anxiety will just level up a lot. Like super lots lots.

"No, I am fine." I smiled and secretly held his hand. I let go of it in seconds and went inside his tent. Then, I will just stay here because I feel nauseous. His make-up is done. He won't need me for about an hour because he has to film a scene with Vanessa.

I asked if I could have the chance to see you even just for a minute. But then I realized, a minute will never be enough because I want a lifetime with you.

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A week here in Utopia is really great. I even get to hang out with Mikasa after work. We drink soju every night. But tonight, it's different. Because I am helping her prepare for a date. A dinner date with her one and only Eren Jaeger.

"I can't believe you'll finally date someone. You literally rejected all men out there and before I was hella confused. But now I know, I understand that it was always Eren. Argh, I am so cringy!" The two of us laughed as I continue saying things about her date with her childhood sweetheart. Oh my gosh I hate saying that.

"I am so nervous." She said.

"Of course you are. As your bestfriend, I am too. You can be a little embarrassing sometimes. But I dealt with it properly." I said and she laughed.

"Really? How?"

"I pretended I didn't know you." I answered honestly and picked out the best shade of lipstick for her. I picked the red shade 'Wine' which I think will emphasize her boldness. Red is her color. Even her scarf is red. And speaking of scarf, I saw her grab it but I took it from her hands and she frowned.

"Hey give that back." She demanded.

"Oh no no. You won't ruin this look by wearing this scarf. You can bring it because it might be useful tonight." I said and playfully winked at her. She grabbed her scarf and hang it on her bag for a little touch.

"I'll bring this scarf but I will not use it like how you think I will. But who knows?" She teased and my eyes widened. I laughed and pushed her jokingly. She laughed with me and hugged me tight.

"Thank you. But you might wanna call Armin too. It's your Anniversary right?" My jaw dropped when I remembered it's actually our anniversary today.

Well, Mikasa won't be home early.

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Double Update tonight! Thank you for reading!