Elizabeth Olsen x Female Reader("Soulmates from the start")

Chapter 34-No escape

*It has been four days since the breakup. You haven't left the dorm. El has been bringing you all of your food, though you haven't eaten much. El has told all of your teachers and your coach that you have the flu. She and some of your other friends(Cody, Sofia, Miles, and Clara) have been bringing you your work.*

This morning you get up at 7, get dressed in shorts and a tank top and put on your running shoes.

El sits up from her bed and looks at you.

El: You're up?

Y/N: Yeah.

El: Are you okay?

Y/N: No, but I need to get out of here. I'm going for a run before class.

El: So you're going to class today?

Y/N: Yup.

El: Umm well good. Have a nice run.

Y/N: Thanks.

You leave and El stares after you in disbelief.
She sends a group text to some of your friends.

El's text: So Y/N is up and out. She just left for a run and says she is going to classes today. If you see her in class, be cautious. She seems fine but idk. And Clara, maybe you could meet her on her run? I'm just worried she is gonna go run off a cliff or something.

*You are on your run, as you pass the track, someone else runs towards you and starts running along side you.*

Clara: Hey.

Y/N: Did El tell you to check on me?

Clara: Can't a girl just happen to be running by and decide to run with her teammate?

Y/N: Sure but you don't randomly run at 7am.

Clara: Well neither do you. But your right, El did tell me to check on you. She's worried about you.

Y/N: You can tell her to stop worrying. I'm fine.

Clara: Are you though? Because you don't have to be. Grieving doesn't have a certain timeline and that whole 5 stages thing is crap. Just because you are grieving in a different way now doesn't mean you have to be all better.

Y/N: But I want to be better! I sat in my room being depressed for four days and I'm not better. I want the pain to stop. And it hasn't stopped so I'm running. I can't understand everything that I'm feeling but I do know that I can channel the feelings into running and that's all I've got right now.

Clara: Okay, then let's run.

You look at her and give her a weak smile.

You run. Your run one of the hardest you have ever run before, you can tell Clara is tired and wants to stop but she does her best to stick with you. Finally, at he top of a hill, you stop.
Clara collapses onto the grass on the side of the road and takes in huge gulps of air.

Clara: Remind me to run with you when your upset more often. I'm not even sure how far we ran but think I just beat some personal record.

You laugh a little as you look down at her. She sits up and hugs her knees as you go and sit next to her.

Y/N: Thanks for this. I needed an escape and it was a lot better to not do it alone.

Clara leans into you and bumps her arm agains yours.

Clara: You're welcome.

You sit there for a few more minutes, breathing in the fresh scent of grass, feeling the sun in your skin, and looking at the view. You still don't feel much better but you don't want Clara to know that. It really did help, the running, but now all of the feelings are coming back. You fight back tears so that she doesn't notice.
Eventually, you both stand up and jog back to school.

*You go and get changed out of your running clothes and then go to writing class.*

You sit in your usual place, next to Cody.

Cody: Hi Y/N
He says this cautiously, as if trying not to startle you.

Y/N: Hi. I take it El texted you too.

Cody exhales.

Cody: Yeah, she did. How was your run?

Y/N: Good.

He nods, looking relived. Then your professor comes in and class starts.

You choose not to go back to your dorm in between classes, it's too depressing and you're not sure why but you don't feel like talking to El right now.

After dance class is over, you ask Ms. Deb if you can use the studio a little longer. She tells you that's fine. Once everyone leaves you turn on some music and start to improv. You don't worry at all about technique or timing, you just dance. You let yourself feel every bit of the anger and pain and sadness that has been trapped in your body. You cry and scream and jump up and down, wanting to feel everything and nothing. Wanting to get it out of you, but you can't. No matter how much feeling comes out, there is still more.