Chasing Benjamin (4th Gen#10)

Chapter 30

A/N: Thankk youuuuu so much for your comments the last chapters! Worth the effort talaga 'yun😭it was fun and I feel satisfied reading your comments and reaction.
You can reread the chapter 18 down to 28, there's really a tiny clue. Hindi ko lang pinahalata masyado kasi you know walang since of thrill.
But anyways, thank you talaga😍 and pasensya na kung hindi ako nakapag-update agad. Need mag rest, eh. Try kong bumawi😊

HAVE you ever doubted why the child called her Momma or Mama?
Why she only called Drix Leo baby, while Drix Loe as anak?

Why she said she missed Drix when they're just met in the hospital?

It's because they're different.

Drix Loe and Drix Leo are two different kid.

And Drix Leo is kinda look like her because she looked like Clea. So basically, Drix Leo has the resemblance of Clea which always mistakenly as hers.

She sighed and caress her son's hair. Magdamag siyang hindi nakatulog, sumikat na lang ang araw pero hindi siya dinadalaw ng antok.

"I bet you're a good, Mom."

She bit her tongue hard to avoid herself from crying when she remember what Hendrix said.

Was she? Was she a good, Mom?

Napailing siya. No she wasn't. Pakiramdam niya ay nagkulang siya bilang ina.

She can't even show her son to the world even how much she is proud of him. She can't even bring him outside to play nor to shop, kailangan pa ng bata na magpanggap bilang si Drix Leo para makalabas ito. They almost have the same features, para itong kambal.

And it hurts. Masakit na kailangan niyang itago ang anak para hindi ito makita ng kahit na sinong Benjamin, maliban kay Hellion. Hindi naman sa kukunin ng mga ito ang anak niya pero ayaw lang talaga niyang mapalapit ang anak niyabsa kalahing nanakit sa kanya.

At higit sa lahat, ayaw niyang malaman ni Hendrix na may anak sila.

That's why his father is mad at her.

"Dad..."

"I may not remember what happened before but I don't agree on what you will do. Itatago mo ang anak mo?" Hindi makapaniwalang tanong ng Daddy niya.

Nasa hapag sila kumakain pero natigil rin dahil sinabi niya ang plano niya.

"D-dad---"

"Is that how I raised you, Chloe? If it does, then I don't want to remember my past anymore. It's a shame on me knowing that I've raised a selfish daughter." Galit na anas ng ama niya.

Napaluha siya sa sinabi nito. Nasasaktan siya, hindi dahil sa talas nitong magsalita pero dahil tama qng sinabi ng Daddy niya.

Naalala niya ang nangyari one month ago, sa araw ng kasal Until now, her father didn't still forgive her. .

But her father just eyed her coldly. And that's he began to treat her coldly.

Until now, her father didn't still forgive her.
Nilunok niya ang bikig sa lalamunan ng maalala niya iyon.

She has not been a good Mom but she's trying to give Drix Loe the world. She will do everything to protect him.

She couldn't cry because her son wakes up. Drix Loe moved and he slowly opened his eyes. His innocent brown eyes welcomed her. Hindi niya napigilang mapangiti sa itsura ng anak.

"Good Morning, Momma..." Drix Loe softly greeted her. Malambing talaga ito sa kanya.

Hinalikan niya sa noo ang anak.

"Morning, anak. How's your sleep?" Masuyong tanong niya rito at isinuklay ang may kahabaan nitong buhok.

She actually like it long hair. Alam niyang ayaw ng anak niya ng mahaba ang buhok niyo but he didn't complain. And she felt a pang on her chest when she's actually doing it on purpose. Drix Leo's hair is long so inorder that they can switch anytime. He has to copy Drix Leo.

Napayakap siya ng mahigpit rito. She felt terrible as Drix Loe's mother. She didn't give him identity. She didn't let him to build or shape the identity he wanted because of her.

"Momma, aren't you in work? I think it's late na." Bahagyang napanguso ang labi ng anak at bumakas sa mata nito ang kalungkutan. Alam niya kung gaano ito kasabik na makasama siya palagi.

Muling bumalik ang bara sa kanyang lalamunan. She could break down in any minute! But she need to be strong in front of Drix Loe. Hindi siyabdapat panghinaan ng loob.

Masuyo siyang ngumiti sa anak. At hinaplos ang mukha nitong kopyang-kopya kay Hendrix. How could she even forget everything on her past when everytime she look at Drix Loe, all she could see is Hendrix.

But unlike Hendrix, she loves her son so much.

"Momma's not gonna go to work today, anak."

Kumislap ang kayumangging mata nito sa tuwa.

"Really? Can we go out, Momma? Can we play archade? Eat ice cream---"

Natigilan ang anak niyabsa pagsasalita ng sunod-sunod na tumulo ang luha sa mga mata niya. Agad niyang niyakap ang anak ng mqhigpit habanh umiiyak.

"I-i'm sorry...I'm so sorry." She apologize while crying her heart out.

Tuluyan ng nawala ang pagpipigil niya ng marinig niya kanina ang sinabi ng anak. Drix Loe seems so excited to see the outside world where she keeps him to see it. Drix Loe seems so excited being with her when she killed herself with her business while she can't even give her son more time with her.

"I'm so sorry, anak." She said while sobbing.

Mula sa pagkakayakap ay humiwalay ang bata sa kanya at hinawakan ang kanyang mukha. Pinipigilan niya ang paghikbi ng punasan nito ang mga mata niya.

"Why are you crying, Momma? Isn't because what I have told earlier? If it's not okay to go out, I understand po." Sabi ng anak niya habang pinupunasan ang luha niya.

Drix Loe is too young. He's just 3 years old! He can speak properly, have good manners and he understand her.

God, do I deserve my son?

She will do anything to be the best mom. Babawi siya sa anak niya. It's not too late for everything.

"No, anak. Momma loves to be with you always. I just cried because Momma is always not with you." Malungkot na saad niya sa anak ng unti-unti na siyang kumalma.

"It's okay, Momma. I understand po. I may not know why but I knkw you have reasons."

Ghad, he's so genius! Mana sa ama. Hindi lang halata pero matalino si Hendrix. Gago nga lang.

"Thank you, Drix Loe. I promised, babawi si Momma, okay? Let's take a bath now. We're going to mall." Nakangiting saad niya sa anak.

Drix Loe excitedly jump off the bed and run towards the bathroom. Agad niyang sinundan ang anak doon.

Medyo gumaan na ang pakiramdam niya. She feel like she choose a right decision.

But she silently wished, na hindi magcross ang landas nila ni Hendrix.

He doesn't deserve to know about their son. He doesn't.