fragile.

chapter 42

Chanel POV
I was trying my hardest to keep myself together this week. Caroline opens up a little more each day and I guess that means she's getting better. We went over to the guys a couple of times but never stayed too long. I've been avoiding Liam more and more cause when he looks at me, he looks at me like Im a broken toy. That's what kills me.
I was laying in bed going through tumblr when I got a call from my old friend Sam.
"Sam oh my gosh ! its been forever!"
"Yeah I know! Well I'm in LA and I heard you were around so Im throwing a party. Please tell me your coming , my parties aren't complete or fun w/o Chanel Maraz!"
I smiled and said, "Let me get back to you."
"Okay!"
I called Connor and made sure Caroline could stay with the guys tonight and he said it was ok and he would take her out the next day. I called Liam and found out he was going to be staying with a friend who's im town for the weekend. I texted Sam getting the address and time. The party started at 8 and it was 4 right now . I dropped Caroline off at The guy's house and drove home. I went upstairs and decided to get ready now. I undressed and got in the shower. I washed my body, hair then did my stuff and crap.
I got out and wrapped myself in a towel. I blowdried my hair amd started curling it in loose wavy curls. I finished in about a hour and 30 minutes I rummaged through my closet for a good outfit. I found one of my newest dresses I got from a photo shoot recently. It was a 1 strap red mid-thigh dress that showed off my curves. I paired it with some black stilettos. I got dressed and pinned my hair. I started on my makeup, I did a smokey eye with winged eyeliner. I did my mascara and applied some red lipstick. I checked the clock and saw it was 7:45. I grabbed my clutch and went to my car. I drove to the house and saw a mansion . I knew Sam rented out party houses and this was one of many. I saw not to many cars so I walked up and walked inside. I instantly saw Sam's blonde hair and 6' foot figure. He saw me and smiled. He ran over and tackled me with a big hug. I smiled amd hugged him back. He got me a beer and we caught up. Soon the house was packed. There was dancing, drinking games and just fun. I smiled remembering when Hailey would take me to parties in high school but No One noticed me. I wasn't drunk just tipsy but that didnt stop the fun. Sam grabbed me and we went to a room and played truth or dare. We all sat in a circle and started,
"Sam truth or dare?" someone random girl asked sam.
"Dare ."
"I dare you to go streaking down the street."
He smirked and stood up, he strode to the door and chucked his clothes at the girl. I laughed and covered my eyes. He came back 10 mins later shivering and out of breath. "The cops saw me and I ran through back yards."
We all burst out laughing as he got dressed. They went back to play but I didn't . I went over to my old friend Sara and Kenny . We all greeted each other and caught up for a little. Sam came over and patted them on the back, "The gang is back together!!! Shots?"
I almost protested but remembered its a party. We all did at least 7 in a row . I staggered with Sam to another room and he sat me on the couch. I couldn't think clearly and everything was a blur. Sam crashed next to me and put his arm around me. I gave me a cigarette and lit it for me. In my head I thought why not . I laid there and inhaled the smoke.
"I really missed you Chanel."
"I missed you too Sam."
He smirked and shooed everyone out of the room. He locked it. I stared at the wall while I smoked. He sat back next to me and started kissing my neck.
"Sam sto-stop. I don't want this."
"Yes you do."
I tried shoving him off and it worked. He left real quick and cane back with some drinks. I shrugged and put out my cigarette . I chugged it and He set his down. He held my waist as I felt myself getting dizzier and more blurrier. I heard a door lock and someone lay me back. The last thing I heard was you wanted this.
I woke up the next morning on the Couch. I looked down and I saw I was naked?!. I jumped up and saw a smirking Sam in the corner drinking a beer.
"You raped me!?"
He walked over and said, "You got dizzy and You wanted this cause you missed me." He touched my cheek and I slapped him. He chuckled, "If you tell anyone or try to take me to court I will ruin you." I put on my clothes and walked to the door. Sam grabbed my waist and spun my around. He kissed and I shoved him off. He whispered into my ear, "Tell anyone and i will kill you."
I ran out and went straight to Hailey's house. I opened the door and screamed for my best friend. She came running down the stairs and looked at my hungover state. She took me upstairs and helped me get into the bathroom. I showered and puked a couple of times. She got me some sweats and laid my in bed. She brought Coffee, bagels, and a bucket. I cried into her shoulder trying to muster what had happened. I calmed down and told her everything. She gasped and a tear rolled down her face. We cried in each other's embrace grasping for some goodness in our lives. Hailey laid next to me and looked at me. "Have you told Liam or any of the guys."
I shook my head and felt more tears, "N-No I ca-can't. Sam will ruin my career, and everything. he said he'd kill me if I told." She hugged me and called Connor to keep Caroline for a couple more days. I cried the rest of the night pitying my existence .