fragile.

chapter 20

Chanel POV
After the Sam incident everything went back to normal except Sam was afraid of me. I mean not that it's a problem , it's actually really, really funny. So later on that day around 5 o'clock we all decided to go to the movies and the mall. Even Andrea was coming!!! We all we to our rooms to get ready. Andrea wore leggings and a big sweatshirt she stole from Kian.She straightened her hair and put a beanie on. I put on leggings and a seaside, long sleeved shirt . ️I flat ironed my hair & did a side braid. Hailey threw on some leggings and a pink sweater and flat ironed her hair. We all put on our converse and walked out. We met the guys by the limo and we all hopped in. In the car all we did was play on our phones and take selfies and crap. I was next to Wren and Hailey . Wren had been acting strangely and I was honestly worried about him. He wasn't the usual hyper British boy he always is. I whispered in his ear, "Talk to me , your not okay and Im worried." He looked away from me and I saw a longing look in his eyes. I put my hand on his shoulder but he shrugged it off. I looked away hoping the pit in my gut would go away. I glanced around and saw Sawyer looking at me with confusion and anger. Our eyes connected and his expression softened for a split second before he quickly looked away.The limo stopped and we all put our shades and hats on and stepped out. We kept our heads down low and walked to the movie theater. We asked which movie was empty and the attendant said the movie Gravity. We paid for tickets and went to get popcorn and such. Everyone had minimal foods except Andrea who had large everything. We all chuckled at her and she shot us a death glare. The minute we walked in we all spread out since it was empty. Jason, Corbin, Taylor, Sam , and Tristen went to the very front and started messing around. Trevor, Wren, and Jc hung out on the steps for no apparent reason. Kian and Andrea went to the back row,sat down , and held each other while enjoying each others company. Connor and Sam P just walked around talking. Tyler and Troye did the exact same thing as Andrea and Kian but sat in front of them. Skylar, Sawyer, Hailey, and Ricky just sat down and talked. I sat on the rail and enjoyed my alone time. Sawyer came over to me and took my hand and said, "Walk with me."
We were in the hallway thing near the exit door and then Sawyer started talking, "Baby, I love you with all my heart but I need to know ... Do you or are you in love with Wren?" he asked never taking his eyes off of me. I breathed deeply and responded, "My feelings for Wren have faded and they started fading right when you came on tour. I love you." He smiled and kissed me. It felt right but was I denying my feelings ? I don't know, but I just need to not fall apart ... at least until we go to the next tour spot. We had a show tomorrow so Amanda forced us to sleep. I woke up at around 1 and couldn't sleep cause Kian snores like a cow. I walked out and went to the pool with my blanket. I laid on the couch thing in the tent thing. It was pretty comfy so I just rested my eyes and wrapped my blanket around me. I woke up and felt a light shining on me. I sat up and realized I was still at the pool. I stretched and went to my room. I had to knock since I forgot my key. Hailey threw it open amd yanked me in with fury in her eyes. "WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?" I looked behind her and saw everyone else behind her looking like they were ready to strangle me. "I was out." I simply replied. She only got madder. Before she said anything Ricky shoved himself to the front and screamed at me, "YOU SCARED US OUT OF OUR MINDS AND YOU JUST SAY YOU WERE OUT?!?!? TELL US NOW OR I SWEAR...." He raised his hand and I went fell to the floor and covered my head and barely whispered, "Please don't hit me." He looked shocked at my words and so did everyone else. My breathing quickened and I started to shake. "SHE'S HAVING A PANICE ATTACK !" I heard someone whisper. But my head was in my knees and I was rocking whispering pls don't hit me. I felt strong arms pick my up and I screamed for them to let me go . They just carried me to the bed quickly and set me down. Hailey came to my side and held me while I slowly settled down. I breathed heavily and moved away from Hailey. I didn't say a word as I went into the bathroom and locked myself in it. I swore I would never have a panic attack again. I was so angry and disappointed. I screamed and cried while I ran my hands through my hair. I punched the mirror shattering it into pieces. I heard banging on the door but I ignored it. I looked at my hands that were now bleeding from the mirror. I just sank to my knees and cried. What's become of me?