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FORGIVE ME

                           Chapter forty four

Summer was a bore. Remus wouldn't let me out of his sight. After I told him what happened when mum had taken me he was devastated. Her wouldn't let me nor Tonks near him.

Oh I forgot Tonks is pregnant. Just a small thing I had to mention.

Remus was in denial in the beginning but I showed him how great he was to me in the shortest amount of time knowing me that he will be the best father in the world and this time he would finally get to see his child grow up and teach him everything there is to know about the world.

I have to say wasn't perfect timing but what can you do.

Remus didn't want me going back to Hogwarts for my last year but I begged him over and over that I'll be able to keep myself safe. I mean what can go wrong?

That was a rhetorical question. I know many things could go wrong but I'm willing to take that risk. I want to fight and I will. Even if that means dying for the cause.

I had tried to write many letters to Draco. Telling him to forgive me and that I forgive him for the death of Dumbledore but none of those even made it to the owl. I always burnt them. I just didn't feel right. It felt as those my words meant nothing. The more I wrote the more I hated it.

I tried so hard to write everything's own but it just came out all wrong. Nothing made sense my sentences were just a jumble of words. I could send that to him.

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"Serena! Dinner!" Tonks called from the kitchen.

"Coming!" I replied closing my newspaper more muggleborns were going missing and more were found dead. Voldemort was going on a bloody rampage.

I ran down the stair and walked into the kitchen where the heavily pregnant Tonks was standing dishing up soup for us all. She wasn't the best cook so she stuck to soup her dipping in crisps when she wanted to. Pregnancy cravings are strange things. All she asks for now is ready salted crisps.

I took the bowl from the side and walked over to the kitchen table where Remus was already sat reading his copy of he daily prophet. As Tonks put a bowl of soup in front of him he closed the paper and shook his head and the last few words he read.

"More witches and wizards going missing. He's going on a bloody rampage" He moaned.

My words exactly.

"Thank you" I said to Tonks whilst I began to eat my soup tucking into the bread on the side.

"You're welcome. Have you got everything for Hogwarts?" She asked.

Before I could answer Remus began.

"I told you already she's not going back"

"Yes I am" I fought.

"No you're not" He replied. "It's not safe but now Dumbledores gone"

"I am not and I repeat not going to miss out on my last year of Hogwarts because a dickhead people call Lord controls it now." I announce.

"Language Serena" Remus muttered. "You will not go back I don't want to risk it. I know you're strong but I can't send you there knowing that something could happen to you"

"Ginny's going back they could easily kill her but they won't. They're not that stupid. Mouldy can wait. He wants Harry I'm sure I'm the last thing in his mind right now" I said.

"Yes but Ginny is not you. Ginny is not a threat to him but you, you could be." He responded.

I looked at Tonks for help but her eyes were staring at her bowl her hands rubbing her belly.

I shook my head and pushed my chair away from the table.

"Ridiculous" I mumbled under my breath as I walked back upstairs making sure to slam the door on my way out of the room.

I sat at the end of my bed and ran my fingers through my hair. I wondered over to my desk and sat down in the chair grabbing a sheet of parchment from my draw. I picked up my quill and dipped it in the ink and began to write.

Dear Draco Malfoy,

I would like to apologise for everything I have caused. The thing I have said to you in the past and what I could say in the future. I want to apologise for leaving you when I know you needed someone. You let me in and I left. Disappointing you like everyone else in your life. I promise you I didn't want to hurt you.

And because you will not let me explain to you in person I will have to explain in a letter my whole life.

Let me tell you something it's about to get very messy.

Once upon a time there was a girl who was born. She thought life was all cupcakes and rainbows. That her life was simple and easy. Little did she know her whole life was a lie. Multiple lies if you want to say.

I found out that my parents weren't my real parents nor was my best friend Noah my brother. They were a lie.

My real parents are Fern Crescent and Remus Lupin. Yes the wolves. This makes me a wolf. My mother being a wolf and my father being a werewolf. Technically my mother is a werewolf but a much prettier one and she's not a big monster like werewolves are. Although my father is not a monster.

Voldemort as you know is obsessed with finding 'My kind' whatever the fuck that means.

When I was brown my parents had to give me away, to the only people my mother ever trusted, the Fords. Charlotte and Micheal Ford were my mothers to best friends. Micheal's family took her in as her own and so did Charlottes family. Unfortunately their kindness was their downfall and brought them death.

When I found them dead I thought I'd be forever broken but I didn't know broken until my brother died. I had lost everything I ever held close. And now I think about it this is what Voldemort's plan was. It was never to kill me it was to make me feel alone. He knew that if I was completely broken I would never be a threat to him. But he's wrong because I found out I had a family.

I still have Tonks, Remus, Mae and Nat. That might not seem like a lot but it is. Because that means I'm not completely alone and Voldemort failed.

The reason I disappeared one night is because I was taken. By who you may ask? My mother. The one I thought all this time was dead. Turns out I was wrong. She survived. All she wanted was to keep me safe. She thought you were a threat but little did she know her own daughter fell for the 'threat'. I knew you could never be a threat to me. You would do anything to have me and I'm sorry that I never got to tell you these words,

I love you Draco Malfoy so please forgive me.