𝓦𝓮'𝓵𝓵 𝓑𝓮 𝓣𝓱𝓮 𝓢𝓽𝓪𝓻𝓼 {𝓐.𝓓.𝓒 𝔁 𝓨𝓸𝓾}

fifteen >>> biggest fan

I stop walking seeing the back of Alycia as she sat on the rocks. I kept my hands in my pockets looking around a moment before slowly looking to her then heading over to her. When I get to her i can hear the waves of the ocean hitting up against the rocks but I know they'd never hit us unless a big storm was brewing. And as I get to her I see her elbows resting on her knees as her red puffy eyes stared out at the beautiful colored ocean. A low, barely audible sigh escapes my lips as I climb the rocks, slowly making my way to the Australian.

When I finally get there I gently take a seat down beside the girl, but look out to the ocean as well barely seeing her look at me from out of the corner of her eye. I bite lip lip and pull my knees up to my chest looking out, letting the calmness of the ocean fill between us.

"I figured you ran here," I finally speak looking at the girl, but her eyes stay off of me.

"How?" She asks, a rough, dry, raspy tone to her voice.

"Because you left your stuff at my apartment," I respond keeping my eyes on her as she shifted a bit but not much. I tear my eyes away soon after and look back out to the ocean and the sky slowly starting to see stars coming out. A small smile rose to my lips as a memory started coming to my mind. "You remember when we first came to this spot? We just got off of filming one of the hardest scenes ever from Crumbling so we came here with some food and just watched the ocean and the stars up above. We talked about that day and the future..."

I pause a moment, my smile still lingering on my lips as I flick my eyes to the rocks seeing the water hitting against it a bit harder now. "Or what about that time we sat here because of what happened between you and Noah? Or when you got into a fight with one of those boys off of Fear? We'd always come here... It was our safe spot..." My voice lingers and I tear my eyes from the rocks and water glancing to Alycia who's eyes are starting to water again. My eyes soften more than they were as I bite my lip looking at the girl. And I knew she was upset at me so I look away and reach up my hand gently placing it on her back, rubbing circles on her back.

"I'm sorry," we both said at the same time. I pick up my head and that's when our eyes finally lock.

"You go first," I say low, gently keeping my eyes on the girl. But the girl shakes her head closing her eyes then reopening them.

"No, no you first," she whispers and I nod slowly, dropping my hand from her back placing it back in my own lap.

"I'm sorry for what I said Alycia-" I pause a second looking back and forth between Alycia's green puffy eyes. "I shouldn't of shouted. I should have handled the situation better and just talked to you instead of shout at you about what, how I was feeling." I tear my eyes off of the girl and back up to the sky.

"But you're right Y/N," Alycia informs me after a couple seconds. My eyes break from the sky and back to the girl. "Everything you said, you were right. I'm scared of how people are going to portray me. I'm scared of what people will say and the things you've told me about your experience... I don't know how you put up that how you put up with it."

I shake my head from side to side. "Alycia, my experiences are my own. Yes I grew up with a homophobic household and people in my family just the same. And yeah people are school weren't accepting and do I get called slurs still, yeah? But Alycia there's still people out there and in your life that will support you. There's a whole community that's going to love and accept you-" I pause a moment gathering my thoughts seeing Alycia's eyes fill with tears and I watch them slide down her cheeks. Swiftly I get up from the spot I sat in and bent down in front of her cupping her face in my hands. Our eyes lock instantly as I move my thumbs back and forth on her cheeks, wiping away the tears.

"Your fans and your family will accept... Alycia, I accept you for who you are even if you may not know what you're feeling right now," I tell her gently. "But know that either way, while you're trying to figure it all out I'm right here. I'm always going to be here for you. Nothing's ever going to change that."

"But I've hurt you, I'm hurting you," she whispers and I shake my head continuing to wipe at her tears.

"Yeah, but here's the thing... I'm not mad at you. I'm not angry or upset. I'm just confused as to what was happening. Now that we're talking we can figure this out, together okay?" Alycia slowly nods her head and I give her a small smile. "You're not alone Alycia. It's hard I know, but the reward, the beautiful side of this all is much more rewarding and better than all the negative. I promise you."

Silence fills between us as Alycia shuts her eyes dropping her head a bit. I drop my hands from her cheeks and quickly sit back down beside her, closer than I was before. As I sit down I wrap my arm around the girl immediately feeling her fall into me. I wrap my other arm around her and just hold her in my arms looking once again back out to the water when a song pops into my head.

"I'm your biggest fan, I'll follow you until you love me papa-paparazzi. Baby, there's no other superstar. You know that I'll be, your papa-paparazzi," I sing low rocking Alycia and I back and forth hearing a slight chuckle from the Australian. A smile forms on my lips as I glance down at her and see a soft smile on her lips.

"You're such a dork," she chuckled and I rolled my eyes.

"Well I was just trying to make you smile," I respond picking up my eyes from her and back out to the stars and ocean. "You want to keep sitting here or do you want to head back to the apartment?"

"Can we just sit here for a bit longer? I want to wait until the stars are really out." I nod slowly and feel Alycia move from where she sat on the side of me. My arms drop from her and my eyes look to her as the girl sits up and looks at me. "Can I sit here?" She points in between my legs and I just nod slowly. I adjust myself as she stands briefly then sits in between my legs. As she does I wrap my arms around her as she leans into me. Both of our eyes going back out admiring the view as the both of us sit in silence.