under the same star }} e.p

chapter 18: confess

it had been a week since the last war and everything had changed immensely. things weren't so dark and brutal like before in miraz's reign.

caspian was given the crown and the castle was all his. i was offered the title of princess on caspian's behalf and not miraz's but i declined.

on one part i felt like yes, i could accept it because i will be a princess in cause of caspian, a just king. and no, because i dont deserve the crown. alexandria does.

im just blair.

just yesterday i finally got the chance to be inside the same castle i was almost murdered in, except this time i was at peace. now im at peace because i know the worst has passed on and i dont have to worry anymore.

currently im at alexandria's room and i cant help but drop my jaw at everything i see. her bedroom gives the best view to the whole kingdom and therefore the best lighting.

she has a massive bed with red, decorated bed sheets. on the ceiling theres a tapestry of many different flowers, animals and some small passages from books.

there are 3 different wardrobes and all of them are filled with the most beautiful dresses and gowns.

a hairdresser stayed on the left side of the room. it had intricate border decorations of gold and red. the furniture was made of brown wood with a red tint. absolutely beautiful.

i looked at myself through the mirror and for a moment i couldn't recognize myself. i looked so proper and put together. my clothes seemed so refined, of course, i had put on one of alexandria's flowy dresses.

it was yellow with a white underskirt. the long-sleeves made it ever so elegant and the waist strap topped it all of. it scrunched together making me appear to have a nice hourglass body.

apart from the minor physical—and very odd changes like: having much longer black hair, getting tan skin, becoming slightly shorter and getting random scars on my body that weren't there before, i'm still me.

and i think i'm happy about that.

my mind switched to edmund who i in fact had some business with. he had invited me to see something just like last time with the flower field.

flashbacks of that day came back along with the mood. i was so queasy of what the consequences of kissing edmund might be. my mindset stays the same but now i'm more lenient.

i opened the room door to reveal the castle hallways spreading to both sides of me, left and right. everything felt so much lighter and happy. the inside wasn't so gray anymore.

i walked left and halted in mid hallway as i recalled one of my dreams, memories, or whatever you may want to call them. alexandria, before leaving, had left a letter to caspian in hopes of him seeing it.

my memory isn't so clear anymore but i want to remember and i'm guessing with all my strength that she had inserted the letter in a box where her and caspian would collect all kinds of little objects.

i was already making my way to his room but i realized: that letter is personal. i really have no business knowing what it says there, im not her after all and if i were i wouldnt want some look-alike to snoop around in my cousins room and read personal letters.

"blair reed, where are you heading?"

i made a 180 degree spin on my heels and immediately met eyes with aslan. my palms started to become sweaty with the burning gaze of the powerful lion that stood 1 feet away.

"um" i began. "i was heading outside"

what a terrible lie.

aslan gave me a deep chuckle. "the exit door is the opposite way, dear"