under the same star }} e.p

chapter 7: reconnecting

what do we know
about love? we're
just characters in a
movie. no feelings.
-anonymous
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"your mother is pregnant. do you have a such little understanding in your stubborn head, alexandria?!"

"no! i know all you desire is for a son to be born, so you can give him the throne and caspian be thrown away!"

"and what about it, huh? youre a girl. a simple, emotional and foolish girl!"

"we took over this land with nothing but greediness! your ego is way to immense for you to see it. you're evil, father!"

" don't you dare talk to me that way!"

"p-please! you're c-chocking me!"

"then leave! go with your little fairytale creatures your professor taught you about! leave! now, alexandria!"

"and you'll know what happens if i see you again."

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i gasped for air.

my eyes frantically searched around trying to make out where i could possibly be. the blue, clear sky met my eyes first, sending a wave of tranquility through my body. i didn't even make an attemp to touch my chest to know my heart was racing.

what kind of dream did i just have? it was disturbingly real and not like a typical dream. this wasn't like the normal nightmare i'd have where diabolical creatures would chase me around.

it was of lord miraz and a girl who looks...just like me. i wasn't in the dream, but rather witnessing from afar. but when lord miraz started chocking alexandria, i could feel it. it was almost as if i was alexandria. our features, our everything was the same. of course, she dressed like an elegant lady and had longer hair.

just as alexandria, i could feel her emotions. she was feeling such anger and hatred deep embedded in her heart for that "father" she has. but when she mentioned caspian, she truly felt love and care for him. not the romatical kind of love, but the family kind.

i looked to my right and susan was laying down sleeping, probably 7 feet away. the dwarf was across from the once lit fire. only ashes were left. i noticed peter and lucy weren't there but maybe they went to get water or something.

my mind didn't register what should've been the first thing i'd notice when i woke up.

there i was laying down on my side on the green pasture grass with edmund's hand over my waist while facing him. he was still sleeping.

i didn't know what to do at first. if i should slap him to wake him up or kick him. nah, i feel in a good mood today. so i went with the third choice: move as slowly as i could.

but, something in me wanted to stay there laying down with him. everything was so peaceful and serene. the weather was chilly and yet warm. the sun hit edmunds face with delicate rays. he looked peaceful.

i never noticed how cute his faint freckles were.

i stopped breathing for a breif moment. im certainly thinking this because his features are nice. yes, definitely. i have no feelings for him. none whatsoever.