under the same star }} e.p

chapter 19: alexandria

do you know that feeling when you're trying to accomplish something and the finish line is so close but your strength just....isnt enough?

my legs were in agony from running.

my mouth was dry and chapped.

my stomach gurgling from starving.

my dress had rips of all sizes and my face was injured with scratches.

my gaze no longer had life. i was done with it.

i limped aimlessly through the forest, not amused by anything. i didn't react to every little sound anymore.

all my life i had fought and continuously broken rules for justice.

narnia had to come back to its rightful owners.

me and caspian always shared the same thoughts and opinions. always strived for whats right.

and now that i tried to do just that im on the edge.

i sobbed when i knew there wasn't any solution to this.

i had the unfortunate chance of meeting the most evil and disturbing man in the whole island. going back isn't a choice.

my knees hit the ground and i broke down, crying. i took a look at my hands filled with blood and thorns.

i pulled my hands up to my face to wipe the oncoming waterfall of tears but the more i did, the more scratches i left behind.

"oh...what have i done to myself" i pitied, chocking on my tears.

flashback of that man hitting me were too many to remember specifically, but i still recall the feeling of my bones weaking when his hand made impact with my cheek the first time.

i should have shut my mouth, gone by the rules and allowed corruption continue to be practiced in front of my pupils.

but i couldn't, i had to go ahead and ruin myself.

now i can't even get up.

i fell down completely on the grass floor. my hair spread around my head and my weak eyes looked up at the sky.

when i gazed up at the sky a vision came upon on me.

a girl, who looked just like me, standing in the middle of a small grass field with her eyes closed, white wires coming from her ears.

i smiled when i saw her face. she was there like a bird smelling the air. she had a small grin spread delicately across her face.

i felt deep, deep comfort when i saw her.

the vision started to dust away when she started to open her beautiful round eyes.

and i was left alone, again, staring up at the bright blue sky.

i laid a hand by my side on the grass. i felt it, prickly and warm.

it was nice to relax and enjoy the scenery around you once in a while.

when i was little, i couldn't grasp the topic of death for the life of me.