I'm Lost Without You

Chapter 8

When we arrived at Stella Maris Beach Resort we saw them taking pictures for their ig stories, kami pala ang nahuli sa pagdating. 

"Hey why you took so long Mari? You are 30 minutes late what happened ba?" Chloe immediately approach me na halata ang pagtataka sa mga mata niya. 

"I don't know. I fell asleep habang papunta dito." Sagot ko sa kanila but I know they want to know the real reason maybe we had problem while on the way. 

"Let's go for lunch since we are complete naman na." Chloe guided us papunta sa isang seafood restaurant. The vibe of the restaurant is very relaxing because from here we can see the ineffable beauty scenery of the ocean waves. 

Sa pagpasok pa lang ay sinusuotan agad kami ng mabulaklak na mga kwintas and the waitresses and waiters are genuinely approaching us as they guide us from our reserved tables. They didn't took our orders since this is reservation, Chloe already settled everything for us. While waiting for our food to come, they have random conversations that are not familiar to me so i busied myself looking at the window and watching other people's business. 

"How was your sleep?" He's trying to get my attention even if I want to ignore his gaze and his questions I know he will still insist himself to me. 

"Okay lang naman nakabawi ako ng tulog at pahinga." Simpleng sagot ko at itinuon muli ang atensyon ko sa labas. 
"Can we talk later after this lunch?" he asked.

"About what?"

"I just want to clarify something." Matiim ko siyang tinignan ngunit hindi siya umiwas ng tingin sakin. Ramdam kong may nais siyang sabihin pero hindi niya kayang sabihin.

"Hey Mari," pagkuha ng atensyon ni Mel sa akin. "Do you still remember your ex when we were in high school? Look he's now a registered nurse, try to check his facebook timeline." I wasn't sure what i'm doing all I know is to think about him and how he's doing. 

When I saw his post I feel proud because of his achievements, palagi niyang kinukwento sakin na talagang pangarap niya ang maging isang nurse and he will go to Canada para doon magtrabaho, he will wait for me and we will settle. I suddenly felt sadness when I saw someone commented on his post, and I have guts that this is the girl, his girl. Hindi ko na hinayaan pang tuluyan akong kainin ng lungkot ko kaya naman muli ko na lang ibunulsa ang phone Ko. 

"I'm sorry." Mel apologize and I just nod, wala naman na sakin kung makita ko siya ang mahalaga lang sakin ay naging masaya na siya. 

"Okay lang yon at least he achieved his dreams." I smiled at her to assure her that it was fine. Muli kong binalik ang atensyon ko sa labas ng restaurant at pinanood muli ang mga alon. Ramdam ko ang makahulugang titig ni Ian pero wala sa kanya ang buong atensyon ko. 

"Hey we're going to eat." Naibalik muli ang atensyon ko nang sikuhin ako ni Leigh na nasa tabi ko lamang. "You're spacing out huh, sino yan si ex ba?" Panunukso nito sakin at sabay tumawa. "Just kidding." 

I saw Ian putting seafoods onto my plate I don't know how to say to them that I have allergies in seafoods. Ano pa nga ba ang aasahan ko sa beach? Of course seafoods hindi naman ako pwedeng magorder ng iba dahil heto lang din ang nasa menu for sure. We start eating and I don't have any choice, ayoko rin naman na sabihin, nakakahiya kay Chloe. She organized this outing and I don't want her to feel na I don't appreciate her efforts, I will just take my medicine. 

After we ate we go to Jom's cabin, sila kasi ang namamahala at ang may-ari ng hotel na nandito but they chose to stay in his cabin since it's like a big house. Nang makapasok agad kami sa kwarto, hinanap ko agad ang lagayan ng mga gamot, ramdam ko nang sumisikip na ang paghinga ko at nag-uumpisa na rin akong mangati sa buong katawan but I didn't find my meds  and I suddenly feel I'm dizzy and everything went black.