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english #5.1 | First thing in the morning | Matt x reader

A loud bang, you flinched at the noise.
Not expecting him out of all people to react like that.

Great.

You scolded yourself, resigning that you could have known better than to start that argument again.

But you knew you couldn't.
It was always comming around again sooner or later, there was no escape from the situation and it's following consequences.

Cussing under your breath you were slouching into the direction of your room in the flat you shared with your two best friends.

It was already afternoon and Mello had left some time ago.
You were looking forward to one of those rare, peaceful evenings of gaming with Matt, but of course you had to get into another discussion.

Usually it would be Mello, the hot-headed one of your childhood friends to get into argument after argument with anybody who liked to disagree with his opinions.

Most of the time Matt or you were trying to deescalate, especially when the other was in the middle of a fight with the blonde, but not this time.

You often had tried to persuade Matt to join you to get Mello away from that whole Kira incident.

Each day the boys left the flat you feared for their lifes.
Surely, you didn't join the Mafia with them because you thought it would be easy.
You weren't that naive.

It was trust and believing in your ability to work as a team.
Because you knew there was no other place for Mello to be after he left Wammy's and refused to work with Near.

First they tried to leave you out of the dangerous plans, trying to protect you.
But soon you made it clear what you thought about that.
They accepted your decision of necessity, always keeping an eye on you.

However, the Kira case was a completely different story.

Of course you wanted this to end.
Yeah, you were a criminal aswell.
All of your friends were too.
But there were things happening out there that scared you more than anything else that happened since you left the orphanage where you grew up.

One should think you were hardy after years of living with Mello, but one could never get used to some things.
And one of them was Death.

Pushing the door to your room open you got inside, only to close it again, sliding down and sinking to the hard and cold flooring of your room.

Hitting the back of your head on the wooden door you felt the pain only lightly.
It was far in the distance, maybe because the painful feeling in your heart was overbearingly strong and you felt a lump in your throat.

You never fought with Matt.
To you he was gentle.
Always cracking a joke, even when he usually tended to be the quiet one out of your trio.
He was just always there when you needed him.

You couldn't bear the thought of losing one of them.
Or even both.
There was no room to argue, you loved Mello.
He was like a brother to you.
A pretty fucking stubborn one.
But Matt was different.

For the most part you tried to deny your feelings for the redhead.
Consequently claiming that these were just memories from a teenage crush you once had.
Even if you tried your best to convince yourself of this, from time to time the feelings you buried deep inside your little heart fought their way to the surface.
This could be when Matt flirted with some girl in the mall or at times like this, where he sided with Mello even though he knew exactly how you felt about the situation.

Yeah, they were best friends before you met, but they never showed any sign of accepting you less inside their family.
This case was the first time where Matt ignored all of your concerns too and it frightend you as much as it hurt.