Lookism Gun x Reader: How The Mighty Fall In Love

Jordan To The Rescue

"Do you want to eat something?" Gun asked from the door.

"I have peanut butter." I said not even turning around.

"You need real food, Princess."

I blinked and turned around to look at him.

Princess.

Princess.

Kitty.

Princess and Kitty.

Different.

Can he help me keep Goo by my side?

Goo.

Gun.

Charles.

Money.

Goo likes money.

Should I give him mine?

But it's not mine. It's New Group's.

I can't take what's not mine.

It's my organization.

That money helps people.

Goo.

Money.

He left.

I'll see him again.

Will I?

Yes.

...no?

Probably.

He's my brother.

Yes.

If I tell him I'm Sargent Death, will he help me keep Goo by my side?

I don't know Goo as much as I thought I did.

What if I tell Goo I'm Sargent Death? Then will he see I'm not a burden? He won't leave then, will he?

But what if he snitches?

What if that gets him killed?

What if I get him killed?

I can't tell them.

"YN, you need to talk to someone."

I blinked then smiled.

"Huh?"

"You're upset."

"No I'm not, jack ass!" I grinned. "Nothing has changed so I can't get sad. I'm happy. I have peanut butter too!"

Sancus was whining and pawing me, headbutting me and looked panicked.

"What?" I asked and he knocked the jar out of my hands.

He crawled on top of and laid me down on my back, whining and looking at me.

"Are you okay?" I asked confused and began to pet him.

My chest felt tight.

It was a little hard to breathe but it wasn't because of the 115 pound dog on me.

Mew was yowling, brushing herself against Gun and running to my side, running back to Gun and then back to me.

"What's wrong guys, is an earthquake coming?

Mew ran to my side, purring and licking my face.

She looked up and meowed at Gun.

It really is hard to breathe and all this noise is giving me a headache.

Gun watched us then walked away.

Mew didn't like that.

She ran after him, let out an angry meow and I heard Gun curse.

"Don't scratch me, give me a second!"

"Mew, come here!"

My voice cracked and I cleared my throat before taking deep breaths.

She ran back to me and began to groom me again, purring all the while.

About a minute later, there was a knock at the door, which Gun answered.

I didn't hear anything for a while after and frowned in confusion.

Jordan walked in with a big smile and Gun went upstairs.

"What are you doing here? I would think Gun wouldn't let you put a foot on his property."

"Well, I'm special." He shrugged with a smile.

"So what's up?" I asked as he laid next to me.

"I wanted to see my best friend, what do you think?"

"Suspicious..." I whispered and he grinned.

"What's wrong?"

"What do you mean?"

"You look like you're on the verge of a panic attack."

"Nah. I'm fine!"

"What happened? Talk to me."

I shrugged and tugged gently at San's ears.

"Goo left again."

"What do you mean?"

"He said Charles called him back for some meeting. I didn't want him to leave and clung on to him as if my life depended on it. He got mad and pinched me."

"He pinched you?! That bastard!"

"No, it's my fault. He's left for work before but this time I panicked and didn't want him to leave." I sighed. "It's my fault so you can't get mad at him."

"He had no right to pinch you, no matter how angry he was.".

"Why did I panic so much? He said we'd see each other in a few days. He's left before..."

"You have a lot going on right now. You're on edge and your anxiety is high. You got hurt after he left so with everything going on, you're brain thinks he won't come back. You associate him with protection and if your protection leaves again, you think everything will go wrong like it did last time. You know he's not leaving you like he did seven years ago, but you're scared. All you want is your big brother's love, and him pinching you freaked you out. Goo has never hurt you physically, so your brain tells you he hates you and is going to leave you again."

"Do you think he'll...?"

"I don't think he will. He loves you to much. He was going to get a big paycheck with this guy, then he died and so that stressed him out. That also added a lot of unwanted work onto him. Still, he shouldn't have pinched you."

"I'm not mad." I shrugged.

"I am."

"Don't be."

"Bitch hurt my best friend, you bet I'ma throw hands!"

"Please don't." I sighed and he huffed.

"...only for you." He rolled his eyes.

"I can't let him leave me, but I know we have to leave him behind. It's stupid, it's going to happen soon, so I shouldn't be freaking out over this! Like, the fuck?!"

"We'll cross that bridge when we get there."

"For most things, I'm okay with almost anything! But this is family!"

"I know YN, and I'm sorry. Even if you have to leave him behind, you'll still have me." He smiled.

"Pinky swear?" I asked with a small smile and putting my little finger out.

"Pinky swear."

We wrapped them together and pressed our thumbs against each other's.