Ackerman's Steppes / Levi x Reader

Chapter 15: Your Soft Fear

Time starts to flow slowly as you begin to unbuckle his last belt on the inner thigh.

You steadily stroke his back of the thigh.

Your heart beats faster and faster. It feels like it is taking forever to take off his clothes.

His gear hits the ground making loud ringing noise because he doesn't take them off carefully; he doesn't care about it now.

Levi shyly takes your hand and swiftly pulls you up into an embrace. He tenderly puts his arms on your waist and leisurely drags it through your side to your shoulder. His other hand, left on the waist, tightly grips you.

Everything he does makes your whole body ache for him more and more.

It's too slow. You can't wait anymore; you need him now. You want to feel secure; you want confirmation that he is yours this instant.

You reach for his cloak and immediately unbutton it with one arm. He looks at you confused, but aroused as much as you are. You keep eye contact with him and reach for his button-down shirt. He gently takes your hands and stops you from ripping it apart.

"Are you sure?" he looks at you fondly, slowly rubbing your hands with his thumb.

"I want you, Levi," you look confidently to his ocean-deep eyes and give him a bold smile. He looks unsure. You break off from his hold and push him down with your weight. He doesn't resist and fall to the ground with you on top of him.

"I am not sure, Ella... As you know, I am inexperienced in these things... Why do you want it with me?" he looks at you lamentably pinned to the ground. Then, he turns his gaze away; you know he is feeling mortified because he hasn't been with a woman and is scared of failing to please you, but you are just as inexperienced as he is. You grab his wrists and hold them to the ground. He turns to look at you still feeling humiliated.

"I don't want it with anyone else. I want you. Only you," you reassure him giving him a serious look on the face. His face turns red.

"We should, at least, move to the tent..." he keeps looking for reasons to stop. You can't; you are too scared of him losing his interest.

"Levi. I want you now. Are you scared of little dirt in a moment like this?" you utter. His unsureness is making you rethink things. He notices your change in mood and doubt in your face; he looks at you sadly. "It's okay. Let's just forget about it," you let his hands free and get off of him. He doesn't stop you. You quietly sigh and sit by him turning your back at him. You don't want to show your disappointment. You can feel him sitting up too and staring at nothing. You are scared to see his face expression after all of this.

You feel embarrassed. You tried your best to seduce and reassure him with everything, but he still doesn't want you. Maybe you aren't womanly enough for him? Maybe he just got caught up in emotions and all of this happened? You basically forced yourself on him; it is not okay if he didn't want none of it.

"Hey, don't get any weird ideas," Levi pulls you by your hand in his arms. You bury your face into his chest.

"I am sorry," you quietly apologize to him for your reckless behavior.

"For what? I should be the one apologizing," he puts his hand on back of your head and holds it firmly.

"For forcing you and," he pushes you against the cold ground, not letting you finish, whilst protecting your head from the impact.

"I want you. Told you to not get any weird ideas," he gently gets on top of you after taking off his jacket, pinning you down. You start to shiver from both excitement and uneasiness. It is going to be your first time... He chuckles after looking at you looking so mixed up. You can't stop your smile from appearing in your face. It is so awkward that it is funny.