Dying hope

Chapter four: friendship?

Beca was really nervous to go to Chloe's house after school, Chloe was the most gorgeous girl she's ever seen. Beca sighed in history continuing to write down notes but still thinking, 'She's gorgeous but she's got a boyfriend, and I don't go for girls who have boyfriends, it's just morally wrong. I couldn't even go after even if she didn't have a boyfriend, I can't let myself get too attached...I just can't.' Beca thought while sighing heavily. Beca was still lost in thought when she felt a paper ball being thrown at her forehead, beca scrunched her eyebrows together and looked around angrily to see who threw it at her. She looked up straight ahead where the ball was thrown from and saw a leggy brunette waving at her flirtatiously. Beca raised her eyebrows at her in surprise, the brunette nodded for beca to open the tiny crumpled ball on her desk. Beca rolled her eyes at the childish act of affection but still opened the tiny crumpled paper, it read: "hi! I'm Stacie, and I think your really hot." Beca scrunched her face up in confusion. Beca looked back up to the brunette across the room from her and awkwardly smiled at her, the brunette bit her lip and beca, looking beca up and down. Beca looked anywhere else but the leggy brunette that was known as Stacie. Back then beca would gadly take this opportunity and fuck Stacie's brains out, but...she's different now. She actually cares about girls "feelings" as they like to call it. As soon as she was diagnosed with brain tumors, she doesn't see the point of even talking to anyone. In the end she's gonna be gone. What's the point of making friends when your just gonna die anyway? Although the doctors did tell beca she has like a fifty percent chance of the brain tumors going away with medicene they gave her and surgery, but beca hates thinking the impossible, so she accepts the inevitable....death.

As soon as the bell rang, beca high tailed it out of there without even a glance at Stacie's way. Stacie pouted as beca ran off rather quickly. Beca looked back behind her in the crowded hallway and sighed in releif. Beca turned back around and bumped into jesse, her friend? Is he even her friend? Jesse smiled as soon as he saw beca "hey beca! How you doin? Long time no see!" Jesse told her excitingly, putting his arm around beca's shoulder and continued to walk to the mess hall for lunch with beca at his side. Beca smiled awkwardly at him "sup jesse?" Beca said weirdly. "Nothing much, but having lunch with you, also Benji told me about the "Chloe Beale thing". Jesse said teasingly at beca. Beca groaned "not you too." Jesse laughed "not really. You see beca I'm what is known to be called a homosexual." Jesse said playfully to beca. Beca laughed and saw that jesses face was none other than serious, "oh...your not kidding are you?" Jesse shook his head "nope. I'm a full on homo." Jesse said smiling proud, jutting out his chest with his hands on his hips, looking off into the distance like a superhero. Beca laughed "that's cool jesse. I'm...gay too." Beca said quietly to him so no one else could hear their conversation. Jesse gasped loudly as they walked into the lunch line together "no way?!" Jesse squealed in excitement, jumping up and down. Beca looked around frantically and saw almost everyone lookin at them weirdly. Beca grabbed his shoulders and made him stand still "jesse!" Beca hissed at him. Jesse stopped "oh sorry. Are you...not out yet?" Jesse asked her sincerly. Beca shook her head "I'm out jesse...it's just...I don't want anybody to know I'm gay here." Jesse looked at her confused "do you mind if I ask why?" Jesse asked her hopeful. Beca sighed "it's kinda personal." Jesse nodded understandingly "I understand, you don't have to tell me....not until your ready." Jesse said patting her on the right shoulder and turned around to grab his lunch. As beca also did the same, smiling at jesse, he's a really good person.

Jesse and beca sat down in the cafeteria together at a small circle table, "Benji should be here soon, he told me he had to do a special act for his new hot art teacher." Jesse laughed amused. Beca chuckled as she opened her cup of fruit and bit into a slice of peach. Jesse and beca continued to talk about everything, jesse can be really funny sometimes, beca thought hopeful, glad she at least has people to talk to.