Dying hope

Chapter 19: Already gone

Beca's dad set up the appointment for next month for Beca to get her surgery. The doctor apparently missed something in the scan and sadly informed Beca's dad and her that even if she did the surgery it was a thousand in a million chance they wouldn't grow back. Beca was a bit disheartened but she was able to go home in a few hours, Chloe was still there  surprisingly. She was a real help to Beca's dad, she made Beca smile for what it's worth even after the news they just discovered.  They made it home at ten at night, Chloe went home because she had school the next morning. Mr. Mitchell thought it would be best if Beca worked on her high school diploma at home online. Beca made no complaints, she's glad to get out of public school. This way she could work faster without getting distracted by idiot jocks. The next morning Beca's dad got up and made sure Beca was ok. She was still sleeping soundly in her bed, so he decided to leave her a note that read: "I'll be home at three, I'm trusting you to do your online classes at a reasonable time today. Also no funny business, love your awesome dad." He left with a kiss on Beca's forehead. Beca woke up a couple hours later, doing those all those snaps in one day can really tire out a person. She smiled at the note her dad left and got up to do her online classes for the day. Beca's smile was still on her face after she did her classes because Chloe texted her, asking how she was doing and that class was boring without her. She replied back that she was doing just fine and of course it was because she's the only entertaining one in that class. They texted back and forth until Chloe asked Beca if she could come over after her cheerleading practice. Beca agreed immediately, might as well get it over with what she has to say to iChloe. Beca just hopes that Chloe won't leave her, she honestly doesn't know if she will be able to function without Chloe making her smile everyday. Oh well if Chloe does decide to run away from her than so be it. Right now Beca is so fucking bored, she doesn't know what to do with herself. If she's honest she really wants a hit of those snaps. She groaned, she needs to distract herself until Chloe gets here in an hour. Exercising helps with addicts, yes she looked that up on the internet. So here she goes, Beca starts to do a few pushups in her living room. She ended up doing fifty but she felt like it wasn't enough. So she started doing jumping jacks, sit ups, and running around their house. It felt like nothing was working, she was in the middle of doing more push ups when her dad walked in. "Woah what are you training for, to be a ninja?" He told her teasingly, dropping his satchel on the kitchen table. Beca shook her head, "I just have a lot of energy right now." She didn't really want to tell him that she's craving a hit, how would that play out? So she told him a little white lie, no harm no foul in her opinion. He chuckled, "well calm down there ninja turtle, you're sweating all over my new rug." Beca looked down at herself and she was in fact sweating, a lot. She shook it off, "So how was work?" She said walking towards the kitchen as she saw her dad grab a wattle bottle out of the fridge. "Same old same old, except I felt like I was missing a little short brunette that always had a frown on her face." He told her jokingly. "Ha ha ha, very funny dad."  She said crossing her arms and pouting a little. She's not that short, I mean come on now. Sure she can't reach most things from the top cupboard but at least she tries. "So what do ya want for lunch? I was thinking I could pick us up some pizza?" He said sitting down next to Beca. Beca nodded, "pizza sounds good." He nodded and left with a kiss on her forehead. She sighed, she really wished Chloe was here already. She hates having these butterflies in her stomach. She just wants to get this over with, so Chloe can reject her and she can move on with her life. Well lack there of come this Friday, since not only will the surgery might not work but the chemo might be a no go afterwards. If this surgery doesn't work than Beca is throwing in the towel, she is tired of the Chemo. She's tired of being here in general and not feeling happy. A few minutes after her dad left and she heard the front door bell ring. She jumped and scrambled towards the door, Chloe was a bit early. She stopped halfway to opening the door and she breathed in a deep breath before she finally opened it. It wasn't her favorite red head though, it was her least favorite brunette. "Hi Becky, long time no see." Natalie said mockingly, leaning on the door frame. Beca gulped, "what do you want Natalie?" Natalie put her hand on her chest in offense, "why would I want anything? I just came to check on little ol beca." She told Beca convincingly but her smile told her otherwise. Beca shook her head, "I think you should leave." Natalie huffed, "oh come on Beca, I'm sorry okay? I didn't know you were gonna go overboard like that. I mean if I knew you couldn't handle yourself than I never would have gave you my good shit." Beca gritted her teeth angrily, "Just stay away from me Natalie, I mean it." Natalie rolled her eyes and leaned towards Beca slowly, "you always say that but I don't think you mean it." She said looking seductively at Beca, looking up and down to her eyes to her lips repeatedly. "You heard what she said Natalie, now leave." Beca sighed in relief as she saw Chloe walking up to her porch. Natalie scoffed and turned around towards Chloe. "if it isn't miss my parents buy me everything. How about you mind your own business? This has nothing to do with you." Chloe scoffed, "how about you leave Beca and me alone? She doesn't want anything to do with you. So I suggest you leave before I make you." Chloe said, getting into Natalie's face aggressively. Beca raised her eyebrows in surprise, is it bad to say that aggressive Chloe is so hot to Beca? Natalie huffed, "whatever, I'll see you later Beca." Natalie said winking at Beca quickly and walking away towards her own car, speeding off into the distance. Beca chuckled and smiled at Chloe, "thanks Chloe, you're my princess in shining armor." Chloe blushed and shrugged, "Cheerleading practice does come in handy when you need to beat someone's butt." Beca laughed, "I wouldn't doubt that, now come in ya big dork." Chloe chuckled as she entered the Mitchell house. Chloe then noticed how sweaty Beca was when she walked towards her kitchen, "Why are you all sweaty?" Beca grabbed a water for her and Chloe in the fridge then handed one to Chloe. "Oh ya know just working out." Beca said flexing her arms a bit. Chloe snorted out a laugh and winked at Beca, "oh it's definitely working." Beca chuckled as well but stopped shortly after as she saw Chloe looking at her like she was the only one in the world that mattered. Beca smiled at her gently, if this wasn't the right time to tell Chloe about her tumors than she doesn't know what is. "Chloe?" Chloe smiled at her back, "Yea beca?" Beca bit her lip nervously, "I uh-need to tell you something." Chloe nodded for beca to continue, "I...I have something that might scare you but I need to tell you because I-I..." Chloe saw Beca struggling to speak, so she stood up and took Beca's hands in hers. "Beca you can tell me anything, I promise you that no matter what it is I will still love you, no matter what." Chloe said lifting Beca's head up to look her in those dark blue eyes. Beca's eyes went wide and her heart full of dread, "Y-You L-Love me?" Chloe sighed happily, "of course I love you, how couldn't I? Beca these last few weeks have been amazing for me, as I hope they have been just as amazing for you. What I feel for you is complete love and adoration. I love you Beca Mitchell and I know that you don't feel like you're worth loving but I can't help myself. So please tell me you love me too because I don't think I could live without you." Chloe said smiling so big, happy that she finally told Beca. Beca's face dropped in realization with tears swelling in her eyes. "Chloe...I-I have tumors." Chloe's heart stopped, "W-What?" Beca's tears spilling free now, "I have tumors in my brain. They've grown so big that I don't think I'll be able to last much longer without surgery. That's why they did a cat scan on my brain...If it doesn't work than I will die Chloe." She said sadly letting go of Chloe's hands. Chloe shook her head in disbelief, "No Beca you can't-I can't." Beca looked away from Chloe, here it is...the moment she's been dreading. She can't make Chloe choose, so she has to choose for her. Chloe deserves everything in the world and Beca is gonna see to it that she gets it, even if it means it's without her. "I know Chlo, I know...that's why I'm letting you go." Chloe shook her head, sobbing uncontrollably now, "No Beca, please don't do this! I love you! I-" Beca had to make this seem real, she can't do this to Chloe. She can't let her see what Beca has to go through every year. She just can't... "I don't-I don't love you Chloe..." Beca's chest hurt so bad. That made Chloe stop all together, "you're lying!" Chloe said trying to grab Beca's hands again but Beca stepped away from her slowly. "I'm not lying! I-" Beca was trying to think of an excuse but Chloe practically jumped on her and crashed their lips together in a passionate kiss. Beca could do nothing but sigh in content as soon as Chloe's lips met hers. She held Chloe so tightly against that she feared Chloe might disappear from her arms all together. Chloe pulled apart a few seconds later and stared into Beca's dark blue eyes intently, "I know you love me...so please don't ever make me think otherwise. You love me Beca Mitchell and I love you back, so believe me when I say you're gonna be ok...I will not leave you." Chloe said earnestly, holding Beca's face in her hands. Beca couldn't stop the tears even if she tried. As Beca sobbed out Chloe immediately wrapped Beca up in her arms tightly. "It's gonna be ok baby, I'm here. I'm always gonna be here..." they held each other for awhile until Beca's dad came back and saw them holding each other laying down on the couch asleep. He smiled and put a blanket on them and decided to eat upstairs for a bit.

Author's note: it's a little short but don't be scared by the song. Chloe and Beca are gonna be officially together next chapter guaranteed. It will also include if Beca survives the surgery or not...DUN DUN DUNNNNNNNN