Dying hope

Chapter 16: Questions

Right now Beca was sort of happy, after Chloe came over last night she just felt amazing. They kissed for awhile on her porch then Chloe had to go home since it was almost two in the morning by that time. It is Friday and she can't wait for the weekend. Then come Monday it is opening night for Romeo and Juliet. After that it's good riddance after school rehearsals and hello to doing something else worth her free time. Honestly after this play she has no idea what else to do. Maybe she could start doing photography again, but seeing Victoria there will be kind of awkward. After her and Chloe became intimate that first time she doesn't see a reason to talk to her. Beca did kind of feel bad for completely ignoring her though. Maybe she can make it up to Victoria and take her out on a date. (This is Victoria by the way)

I mean Victoria did kiss her so that's gotta mean she likes her, right? Oh well Beca doesn't want to think about that mess right now. How is she gonna fix the Chloe mess? I mean sure Chloe makes her immensely happy. On the other hand Chloe also has a lot of insecurities. One being she cares too much about her popularity, she won't even talk to Beca in public anymore because everyone has forgot about the mysterious new girl. Beca prefers to remain invisible, it's just easier that way. Also reason number two, Chloe would never dump that stupid jock Tom for anything. Beca gets it he provides more fame to her popularity. Beca could honestly care less about popularity at all. Been there, don't that, and never wanna go back. Maybe she should actually open up to Chloe and try to show her this isn't what life is about. Being popular isn't everything, like what happens when she's thirty? Will she keep trying to sacrifice her own happiness for others? I guess she can't put all the blame on herself either. Besides knowing Chloe's last name, she knows nothing else about her either. Well she does know one thing, Chloe's favorite color is pink. She loves to sing, dance, she is also amazing at knowing who is dating who in the celebrity world. Ok maybe Beca knows more than she gives herself credit for. She also feels like she doesn't know enough about her. Beca stopped in the middle of the hallway, woah...does she want to know more about Chloe? Holy shit, she does! What is happening to her?! Beca shook herself out of the horrible head space she was in and walked to her locker to grab some notebooks. She shut her locker door and was met with Natalie. "Jesus! You have got to stop doing that!" Beca said holding her hand against her chest. Natalie chuckled, "oh come on you love when I do that." Beca scoffed in amusement, "No. No I really don't." Natalie shrugged her shoulders, "Anyways what I wanted to tell you is that I'm trashing that prick Tom's car at lunch time, you in?" She said wiggling her eyebrows up and down at Beca. Beca pursed her lips, "you know as tempting as that sounds, I would really rather stay out of trouble if you don't mind." Beca said putting her backpack once more on her shoulder and tried to walk past Natalie. Natalie grabbed her hand and turned her around, "Don't you want a little payback? I mean he practically has your princess hostage in his castle." She said deviously, pulling Beca closer to her. Beca scoffed and took her wrist out of Natalie's hold. "She's not my princess, we just hang out from time to time." Beca said lifting her head up and to glare into Natalie's green eyes. Natalie scoffed back at her, "oh yeah sure and I'm friends with the pope. Don't try to act innocent. I saw you guys that night." Beca's glare dropped and turned into confusion, "How do you know where I live?" Natalie dismissed her question, "Don't worry about it, anyways If I were you I would want to trash that prick and his car just for shits and giggles." Beca licked her lips in frustration, "Dude I'm not gonna trash his car just because he is with Chloe and I'm not." Beca has had enough and started to walk away towards her class. Natalie groaned and kept up her pace with Beca, "Ok then don't do it for the princess, do it for all the kids he has been bullying. Hell do it for that nerd you still hang out with." Beca shook her head, "that nerd's name is Benji and don't call him a nerd." Natalie was about to give up but then she got an idea, "okay how about this, if you do this for me I'll give you something extra special for this weekend?" Beca stopped once more and turned around, "what kind?" She asked curiously. Natalie smirked and leaned into Beca's ear. "Her name rhymes with holly." Once she saw Beca's face perk with interest she wrapped her arms around Beca's waist and pulled her closer to her own body. Beca had a smirk of her own, "You got a deal, but come by my house again and I will end you." Beca said threatening looking into her bold green eyes. Natalie's right hand came up and cupped Beca's face, "oooh is that a promise?" She asked wickedly. Beca growled and pushed her up against the lockers surrounding them. Natalie groaned while smiling up at Beca, "oh be careful blue eyes, a certain red headed princess is watching us." Natalie said darting her eyes behind Beca's shoulders. Beca looked over her shoulder and sure enough there Chloe was watching with Aubrey and Stacie beside her, talking aimlessly. Her mouth was agape and staring wide eyed at Beca, like she was scared of her. Beca swallowed nervously and let go of Natalie. "Just this is it okay? After this I'm done taking drugs from you." She whispered hotly at Natalie. Natalie smiled like a rattle snake and got off the lockers turning to the side, "Are you sure about that?" She once more looked to the right of them and saw Chloe still looking at both of them. She decided to test something once her eyes locked with Chloe's she grabbed the back of Beca's head and smashed their lips together. After a few seconds Beca pulled back roughly, looking at Natalie in disbelief. Natalie smiled and looked at Chloe and did a small little wave while walking away with a sway of her hips. Beca looked at Chloe and she had a frown on her face and angrily shut her locker door, startling Aubrey and Stacie. They watched confusedly as Chloe stormed off. Beca sighed heavily, secretly walking to where Chloe stormed off and followed her. She saw Chloe go to the choir room, she opened the door and first thing she saw was an angry Chloe with her arms crossed. "Leave me alone Beca and stop following me." Chloe tried to walk out of the room but Beca stopped her. "She's just trying to make you jealous okay? I'm so not into her like that, I swear." Chloe huffed and shook her head in disagreement, "I'm not jealous Beca...I-I have a boyfriend okay? Why would I be jealous over some random girl kissing you? I don't like you like that Beca." Chloe told her unconvincingly. Beca's face dropped and turned into anger quickly. "Really? Really Chloe? So you just come to my house and kiss me and then treat me like I'm invisible to you at school because you don't like me?! That's rich." Beca said throwing her hands up in frustration. "I-I-" Beca grabbed Chloe's wrists and pushed her up against the teachers desk roughly, making Chloe squeak in surprise, "No-No, you don't get to do that to me! You don't get to tell me that you missed me, when all you do is constantly make me feel like I'm not good enough for you! You don't get to make me feel things that I haven't felt for anyone for a long time just because you're a curious straight girl. I won't do it no more Chloe, I won't..." Beca had Chloe's wrist in such a tight hold that it was starting to hurt her, but all Chloe could do was just stand there speechless. She had no idea Beca felt any of this, hell she never even asked! No wonder Beca has been so cold and distant at times with her. Now Chloe feels like utter shit, she just assumed Beca was okay with all of this. She finally gathered the courage to say the one thing she should have said a long time ago, "I-I'm Sorry Beca..." Chloe said in a weak voice, looking into Beca's eyes with tears swelling into her eyes. Once Beca saw Chloe's eyes well up with tears, her anger completely diminished. She saw what she was doing, holding Chloe up against a desk forcefully with her own bare hands. What is wrong with her?! She let go of Chloe's wrists and saw her fingers prints indented  on Chloe's porcelain skin. "Oh god, I-I'm so sorry Chloe I didn't mean to-I" Beca started to curl into herself and backed away like a scared deer. Chloe saw this and her tears started spilling freely now on her face. "Beca it's okay, I deserved it." She tried to move forward and hold Beca against her, "No! Leave me alone!" Beca screamed pushing Chloe away harshly and running out of the choir room. Chloe just stood there sobbing, "Chloe are you ok?! I heard screaming." Aubrey and Stacie both bursted into the room panicked. Chloe shook her head no and felt that mascara was all over her face, she probably looked like a huge mess right now.

Beca fled the school running over towards her car, shakily putting her keys in her lock. "Hey blue eyes, where do you think you're going?! We have to do this before Tom gets out of lunch!" Beca heard Natalie behind her. Beca turned around, "I'm sorry Natalie I can't right now I have to go." Natalie scoffed, "Ok..then you're not getting your precious narcotics." Beca could practically hear the smirk in her voice. She knew Beca would crack given the right drug. To say the least, over the pass week she has been doing all sorts of small drugs with Natalie. It started out small but she kept going and going. She always told herself she could stop any time she wanted too. I guess it's better said than done. "Fine, what do I have to do?" Beca said glaring at Natalie. Natalie smiled brightly, "Great! Come over to my truck, it's in the back." Beca followed Natalie to the back of the school to her car. Natalie unlocked the truck and dug in the back and pulled out a metal baseball bat, with two spray paints. "You my friend are gonna bash the shit out of his car while I write a sweet little message." Natalie said innocently, handing the bat over to Beca. Beca sighed heavily and snatched the bat out of her hands. "Let's get this over with." They walked back to the front of the school where the jocks parked. "Okay now I know for a fact all of the teachers are in a faculty meeting so we are safe from getting caught. So do your thing blue eyes, the faster the better." Natalie said readying her spray cans. Beca readying herself to hit the car but she stopped every time. Natalie groaned, "oh come on! Hit it!" Beca winced, "I can't..." Natalie smirked, "Yes you can, you know why?" Beca looked at her confused and shook her head. "Because Tom has everything you want. A reason to live, to smile everyday, to be whoever he wants to be...even the perfect girl." Natalie said whispering the last part into Beca's ear. This made Beca see Red, literally. She screamed out in complete rage and started to hit Tom's window-shield with all her force. Natalie smiled as Beca went complete ate shit on Tom's car. At the last swing Beca screamed out in agony and dropped the bat.

Natalie laughed, "good girl Beca." She started to do her spray paint message with hot pink spray, "I think I'm a bully with a vagina seems good enough for me, don't you?" Natalie said laughing as she gathered all the equipment and walked away. Beca just stood there in complete shock, she can't believe she just did that. She ran away as fast as she could and got into her car, speeding off.

Author's note: So this is where shit hits the fan. Let me know what you guys think. Don't worry everything will be fine in the end. I'm just making some angst and chaos before it does.