Dying hope

Chapter 18: Relief

Chloe felt sick to her stomach. Here she is in the hospital lobby with Beca's dad waiting on the doctors. As soon as they were halfway to the hospital Beca started going into a seizure in the back of the car. Chloe didn't had no idea what to do and started to panic, I mean who wouldn't in that situation? Luckily Beca's dad was there or else she doesn't know what would have happened to Beca. He told her to put Beca on her side and make sure she is still breathing. They got to the hospital right after Beca stopped seizing. Why wouldn't Beca tell her about this?! I mean what if she just went into a seizure with her around?! She would have no idea what to do! Chloe put her hands in between her face, sighing heavily. She turned and saw Beca's dad not doing so hot either. He was pacing up and down the hospital lobby withthe look of complete terror. "Mr. Mitchell? I'm so sorry this happened." Chloe said feeling guilty that she let Beca hang out with that drug dealing girl, and didn't do anything about it because she was too scared about her reputation. "What is it Chloe?" He said still pacing up and down. "I-I let Beca hang out with that girl even though I knew she did drugs...I'm so sorry Mr. Mitchell this is all my fault. I'm so sorry." Chloe said remorsefully, sobbing into her hands. Beca's dad stopped pacing and walked to Chloe's side immediately, "Oh Chloe none of this is your fault, you couldn't have known about Beca's drug problem." He said rubbing Chloe's back up and down. Chloe sniffled, "I still should have done something. I should have been there for her when she needed me. I wanted to be there but the stupid popularity got to my head. I don't know what I was thinking..." He frowned sadly, he didn't want to watch this poor girl blame herself for something she just couldn't control. "Chloe this is not your fault, Beca just needs some help ok? You're there for her now and that's all that matters." Chloe nodded, he was right. She's going to be there for Beca as long as she needs her to be. Hell she'll even quit the cheerleading team to be there for Beca. "You're right Mr. Mitchell, I'll be here for Beca as long as she needs me to be I swear." He smiled at Chloe softly, "Thank you Chloe...and most importantly thank you for loving her." Chloe's face dropped in shock, but soon morphed into a smile. "I couldn't stop myself from loving her if I tried." He smiled and hugged Chloe.

The first thing Beca saw when she opened her eyes was a bright light, she groaned in pain. She blinked her eyes a couple of times to get used to the light. All of a sudden she heard a door opened and turned her head towards it, "oh good you're awake. Hi I'm Fat Amy I'm your nurse." Beca scrunched her eyebrows together in confusion, she's in the hospital? When did she get into the hospital? The last thing she remembers was-oh god Chloe! She can't believe that happened! How did she let herself get this bad again?! "So I'm just gonna get the doctor so don't go anywhere. I mean not like you could but-" Beca glared at her and fat Amy cringed, "right, sorry I'll just go get him." The nurse walked out of the room as Beca shook her head, what kind of nurse is named Fat Amy? It's kind of cool though. Beca took this time to look around the room, she saw flowers and cards on the table right next to her. It was from Benji and Jesse, ok those idiots are kind of sweet. She slightly smiled then frowned when she looked down and saw an Iv in her arm. She always hated needles as she was contemplating on throwing up at the sight she heard the door open again. "Hi I'm doctor Levi, how are you feeling?" It was a short bald man with a notepad in his hands. Beca cleared her throat, "My throat is kind of dry." He laughed and poor Beca a cup of water and gave it to her. "Well besides that miss Mitchell, are you feeling any soreness? Pain?" Beca shook her head at his questions and he nodded while writing them down. "Ok so from what your father has told me is that you were doing some sort of drugs. Can you please tell me what those were?" He said looking down at Beca with kindness. Beca sighed, "I uh took some pills but I don't know what they were, and I inhaled some gas." He nodded while writing down more notes, "right that explains the sudden seizure, but I also noticed in your folder that you have those quite often due to tumors in your brains. Nonetheless I think we should do a quick cat scan to see if the inhalants inflamed them anymore. So a nurse will be here to take you to the X-ray room and I'll send your father back here, okay?" Beca nodded solemnly, great her father is gonna have a cow. A few minutes later she heard the door open again, "oh thank god Beca!" Her father rushed to her side and immediately hugged her on the bed. Beca groaned due to him holding her so tight, "ok dad stop, can't breathe." He chuckled then let go of her and standing back up. "I'm sorry I'm just glad you're okay..." he said as Beca watched tears start to swell in his eyes. Beca bit her lip sadly, she hated seeing her dad cry because of her, "dad, I'm really sorry...I tried to stop but I just couldn't." He nodded sadly, his tears starting to spill from his eyes. "It's okay Beca, it's not your fault. I'm just glad you're still breathing." He smiled, wiping his tears away. "Am I gonna go back to rehab?" Beca asked him cautiously. He sighed and shook his head no, "I don't want to spend another moment without you and I don't think you would go anyways. I mean you're almost eighteen, you can sign yourself out of there and I wouldn't even know." He said shrugging his shoulders and sitting down next to her. Beca nodded, "so what now?" She asked him curiously. "Well we wait for the cat scan and see what the doctors wanna do. If you're ok than we go back home and I put you on house arrest." He said playfully smacking Beca on her right leg. Beca chuckled, "I'm pretty sure I would get the ankle bracelet off in five minutes." They both laughed together as the door opened again. Beca was expecting Fat Amy but who she saw made her mouth open in shock. "Hi Beca..." It was Chloe holding a plastic bag in her hands. They both stared in each other's eyes intently, not saying a word. Beca's dad suddenly stood up, "Well I'm gonna go see what's taking the doctors so long, so see ya." He said awkwardly walking out of the room. Beca almost laughed at how uncomfortable her dad was, he always hated awkward situations. Chloe slowly walked towards Beca's hospital bed, "I brought some jello, they only had orange and green." Chloe said sitting in the chair her father previously sat on. Beca smiled and bit her lips, she was a bit hungry. "I'll take the green." Chloe smiled taking out the jello cup and opening the green jello, she also took out a plastic spoon out of the bag. She scooped up the jello on the spoon and attempted to spoon feed Beca. Beca chuckled, "Chloe I think I'm very capable I'm feeding myself jello." Chloe shook her head, "Just open your mouth." Beca was about to protest again but as soon as her mouth opened to speak Chloe sneakily put the spoon in Beca's mouth. "There that wasn't so hard, was it?" Beca playfully glared at Chloe, while Chloe had a look of victory on her face. "You win this time Beale." Chloe smiled teasingly, "I win all the time Mitchell." Beca playfully rolled her eyes. "Yea, Yea, Yea, you and your logistics." Chloe laughed as she continued to feed Beca her green jello. Beca didn't put up a fight that time because it's not every day you have a beautiful girl like Chloe spoon feeding you jello. After Chloe was done feeding Beca her jello they decided to turn the tv on, while Chloe ate hers. They sat in complete content silence. Chloe knew that if she asked Beca about anything right now she would probably shut Chloe out. So they smiled and laughed as they watched Beca's favorite cartoon together. A few moments later the nurse came in and took Beca to her cat scan. Beca's dad told Chloe she could wait in here because the test would only take a couple of minutes.

"So according to the cat scan the tumors seem to be growing at the rate they usually do." Doctor Levi told Beca's dad outside of the room Beca and Chloe were currently in. Beca's dad nodded, ok that was at least some positive news. "However if we don't get Beca to do chemotherapy or to get Craniotomy surgery than I'm afraid she won't have more than a couple of months left before her brain completely shuts down on her." Beca's dad nodded solemnly, he really didn't want to see his little girl through either of that. Ultimately it's up to Beca which one she wants to do. So he thanks the doctor and goes back inside the room, "Hey Chloe? Can I speak to my daughter alone for a moment?" Mr. Mitchell asked her politely. Chloe nodded, "sure I'll just be outside." Beca watched as Chloe went outside and her dad came up to her with a frown on his face. She sighed heavily, "let me guess, you're gonna ask me if I wanna do the surgery or the chemo?" Beca's dad nodded sadly. Beca licked her lips, she really didn't want to do either. If she goes through with the surgery than many complications can happen. Shit her brain might swell and boom she's instantly dead. If she picks the chemo even then it's a thirty two percent chance it will even work. Well what does she have to lose? I mean either way she's gonna die might as well keep fighting until her last breath, she hasn't come this far to chicken out. She sighed and looked at her dad, "I'll do the surgery." Her dad started to cry tears of joy, "Thank you Beca, thank you so much for fighting this long honey. I will be there every step of the way okay? Everything is gonna be ok." He hugged so tightly that it made her wanna cry but she didn't want Chloe to see her like that. Hell she doesn't even know what's going on, except for the fact that she has a drug problem. Beca has to tell her now before she decides to tell Chloe she loves her. She can't do this anymore...I mean it's better to have loved than to not love at all. Gosh she hates that she just quoted a cliche but it's sort of true in her case. As soon as she gets to go home she's gonna tell her and if Chloe runs for the hills than so be it.

Author's note: ok I said I wasn't gonna update until tomorrow, which is in fact still true because it's like two am for me. I am going to do another chapter, this is just a fill in chapter for you guys. So don't worry next chapter is on its way when I wake up in a couple of hours.