𝑁𝑜𝑒𝑙𝑙𝑒

𝐼𝑚𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑚𝑒𝑛𝑡

Is this actually happening.this is not how it was meant to go.

"Uh...I...hi Tommy"I say tucking a piece of my hair behind my ear before looking down to the ground

"Are you ok Elle i sa-"Toby stops in his tracks when he notices tommy

"Oh"he says

"I uh was just heading out but I will see you tomorrow Tubbo"

"Alright...uh...yeah co-"

"No"I say,both Toby and tommy look right at me with there eyebrows pulled together in a confused expression

"What do you me-"

"We need to talk and if we don't do it now we might never get the chance"I say quietly.tommy just stays still and looks at me

"I will leave you guys to it...talk later Elle"

"Thank you Toby"I say giving him a soft nod

"Call me when your done and I will walk you to the station".I smile at him before he makes his way out of the shop

"S..so where do you wanna go"tommy says with a stutter

"We could sit on the bench's at the beach"he just nods and turns to leave the shop.I hate this.I hate that we are so awkward with each other.I miss not caring about how I was around him.I just don't know if it will ever be the same

We walk to the end of the lanes that comes out just before the beach.we find a bench which is luckily now dry from the warm sun.I sit with one leg over the other and lean on the back of the seat.tommy plops down next to me and places his elbows on his knees.

"So"I say,tommy keeps his eyes on the sea in front of us

"Are you going to tell me why you did it"

He sighs"listen Elle nothing I say will justify for what I did and I know that but I just want you to know why I did it and the reasoning behind it"

"Go on then I'm listening"I say in a monotone voice

"I met her that day to move on...a couple weeks before she messaged me and told me that she still likes me and how she wanted to get back with me...I didn't tell her we were together because we still hadn't made it official so I told her that I wasn't really interested...the day we went shopping I saw here in the record shop and she asked if I wanted to go get some food with her...I told her I was with you that day and I wasn't free...as soon as she found out I was with you she just started to laugh and she thought I was joking...I said "no I am actually with her I don't want to get food with you" she told me "why are you with her anyway she is a little rat" I instantly got angry and told her to piss of as I wasn't going to let her talk about you like that...anyway she left after that but I felt bad for talking to her like that even after she called you names...looking back I understand why you was so angry...I looked like a right dick head meeting up with her knowing full well that I have you...when I met her I told her we were together and that I didn't want anything to do with her"He turns at me with a uneasy look,my eyes now stay glued to the scenes in front of me and my legs start to shake with anxiety

"What about the pictures"I say trying my hardest to stay firm and not crumble with the amount of anxiety I'm feeling

"I...she asked me to take them and I didn't know what else to do but to just say yes...I didn't think it was that ba-"

"What about the one where she's laying on you ...and your playing with her hair"my voice cracks with the pain I'm feeling right now

He sighs"I-she laid on me Elle and I felt so awkward I didn't know what to fucking do...she picked up my hand and placed it there..."I roll my eyes at the rubbish excuse