I woke up dreading today.dreading the pain I will feel as I say goodbye to him.hating the fact that we have to leave each other in the first place.I woke up early and decide to jump in the shower.as I turn on the tap and let the hot water trickle down my body as my thoughts take over me.
I get out of the shower after ten minutes and choose what I'm going to wear.seen as today we are just travelling I decided to wear something comfy.I put on a cream jumpsuit and throw my hair into a messy bun.
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As I walk out of the bathroom I get a huge fright as I bump straight into Tommy.we both start laughing as we try not to wake up his parents.Tommy grabs my hand and pulls me back into bed.
"Tommy I need to start packing before we leave"I whine
"Shhhhhh we have ages until we have to leave just lay with me for a bit....please"He looks so cute when he begs.I give in and crawl into bed next to him.Tommy wraps his arms around me and hugs me as tight to him as he could.
𝚃𝙾𝙼𝙼𝚈𝚂 𝙿𝙾𝚅: As i hold her close to me i feel my emotions grow.the sadness of having to leave her behind.the anxiety of not knowing what we are going to be in the future.but also the feeling of love.the feeling I get when I see her smiling and being herself.I often wonder if she feels the same way.wether I'm to forward and she finds it awkward.the kiss last night was the best thing to happen to me in a while.the feeling of safety is addictive especially when it's from her.
She pulls back and looks me in the eyes.I rub her cheek to ensure her she is safe.the way she makes me feel.I give her a quick peck on the lips before I get up to go to the toilet.
𝙽𝙾𝙴𝙻𝙻𝙴'𝚂 𝙿𝙾𝚅: As he pulls away the butterfly's return.I fall more and more in love with him everyday.I watch him as he makes his way to the bathroom.my phone dings and I pick it up.
"Hey Elle just wondering how you are getting on can't wait to see you"
"Hey maeve I'm all good missed you lots you better bring the snacks there's a lot of tea that is ready to be spilled"
"Ahhhhhh can't wait see you later"
"❤️"
I put my phone down with a huge smile on my face.it gets to about ten and we decide to leave.Tommy carries my bags to the car for me and chucks them in the boot.I climb into the the back of the car and Tommy sits in the middle.We both decide to play on Tommy's switch on the way to the shops for snacks.
After playing for a bit we finally Arrive.Tommy got all stroppy as I kept beating him on Mario cart.however he cheers right up after I give him a quick kiss.when we arrive at the shop Tommy's parents send us in with a list of what to get.
Tommy grabs my hand like usual and decides to go straight to the drinks.Tommy grabs a whole box of coke and also picks up a pack of water bottles for me.I smile at him for his nice gesture.next we get to the crisp and sweet section.Tommy grabs all the crisps and I get the chocolate.on the list it said to pick whatever so I picked what I think Tommy would like the most.i choose caburys chocolate and also galaxy.when I return to Tommy I show him my choice of chocolate.
"Hey guess which one I chose"
"Ummmm I don't know show me"
I pull the chocolate out from behind my back and Tommy's eyes immediately light up.
"Oh my god that's my favourite"
"Of course that's why I chose it"we both laugh before making our way to the checkout.
We return to the car and are on our way again.after a bit I get a notification one my phone.
"Hey"
"Toms what are you doing I'm sitting right next to you"I reply
"I just wanted to ask what we are now after yesterday"I hesitate for a minute whilst I think of a reply
"I don't know it depends on what you want us to be"I put my phone down and turn to him
"Together"he says out loud.I feel my cheeks start to blush and I get all shy again.my feelings towards him are one of the only thing that keeps me motivated to keep going and to never give up on myself.I begin to feel extremely tired so I lay my head on Tommy's shoulder and eventually fall asleep.
I shaken out of my sleep by tommy. "Hey Elle were almost there I thought I wake you up so you can sort out your things"Tommy notices my eyes start to water so he pulls me into a hug to comfort me.
As we arrive back at mine I could already feel my heart starting to break.Tommy grabs my stuff from the boot and drops them of at My doorstep.I say goodbye to his parents before getting out.as I get to the door step I already start to burst into tears.
"Oh Elle"Tommy says as he wraps me into a hug.we stay there for a while before I see a tear drop past my face.I look up to him and realise he's crying to.
"I'm going to miss you so much Tommy you know that right"
"Of course Elle...I don't know what I'm going to do without you"
"Promise me we'll talk everyday"
"Definitely...and if we can't find the time to call or FaceTime I will text you no matter what I promise you that"I give him a big smile before he hugs me one last time.he starts to walk away and I feel his hand slip out of mine.before I know hit he's back in the car and driving away.My mum opens the door and immediately comforts me.
Later on that evening maeve came round for a catch up.I told her everything about what had happened and she was so excited for us.in fact she was so excited she started to plan her maid of honour speech for when we get married.soon enough I fall asleep to the sound of her voice.
