𝑁𝑜𝑒𝑙𝑙𝑒

𝑇+𝑇+𝐸

(Just a heads up this one is long as I didn't know how to split it so prepare yourself 😂)

"Yeah that's cool how long you going to be"

"Alright see you then...bye"

I blink my eyes open as I'm woken by tommy talking.I let my eyes adjust to the light before trying to comprehend what's going on.I turn to my right and see Tommy pacing the room looking some what nervous

"Morning bubs"I manage to croak.I must have slept well last night because I don't even remember waking up once even to use the bathroom

"Morning Elle are you feeling ok today"

"I'm not sure really...I feel ok at the minute but I guess I will have to see how the day goes"he stays looking at me with an uneven smile as he stares into space

"Hey bubs are you ok you seem of?"

"I uh...yeah I'm fine just anxious and nervous about today"he notices worry wash over my face as I begin to panicking over what he has planned for us

"Listen it's fine ok there's nothing to worry about it's all going to be good it's just me being stupid"he says flopping down onto the bed and resting his head in my lap

"I understand...I get like that when I do things I'm not used to but it's all good in the end"

"D...do you ever feel embarrassed when it happens...cause I get it more now then I ever did before we left and it's...I guess it's confusing...I just don't get why I feel so weird over the littlest things...I feel different to everyone else and like people may think I'm a freak"as he's talking I make sure to comfort him in anyway possible as I know what he's going through

"It's normal toms...I used to feel like that before I learnt to accept my anxiety and make it become apart of me and what I do...you will learn to not let it take over you and realise that it's just a silly mind game that you can't control...trust me,a big part of my anxiety specifically is thinking everyone is staring and that they are just making fun of you for no reason...but there not...it's just your mind playing tricks but I promise it gets better over time"I give him a warm smile as I watch him process my words

"I'm glad I have you to talk to...before we became close again I felt I had no one to tell how I was feeling as I knew that they wouldn't understand it...thank you bubs it means a lot"

"Your welcome toms...I'm here whenever you need me"I give him a warm smile and a peck on the head

I love the fact that me and tommy can now open up and trust each other with how we are actually feeling.after we split for a bit I felt I couldn't tell him anything at all.I felt I couldn't even tell him about what I had done in a day without the worry of him not understanding me.but now,I know I can tell him anything that's on my mind and he's will just listen and give advice on any type of situation.I feel so happy.

"Right I better get ready...what do I wear?"

"Hmmmm something casual it's nothing crazy"

"Ok...that doesn't help but"we both laugh before tommy gets up and helps me out of bed

I make my way to the draw and choose an outfit.I take my clothes to the bathroom and get dressed in there.I decide on a pink checkered tennis skirt and a black top saying "why are you so obsessed with me?" In the same pink colour.