𝗺𝗰𝘆𝘁 𝗼𝗻𝗲𝘀𝗵𝗼𝘁𝘀 [𝘀𝗺𝘂𝘁,𝗳𝗹𝘂𝗳𝗳,𝗮𝗻𝗴𝘀𝘁]

i love you [georgenap] 💛

tw: imposter syndrome

(i wouldn't classify this as angst or like sad, it's mostly fluffy)

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george had laid in his bed for days now, not even trying to get out of the blankets that wrapped him in pain, that task simply seemed to hard to do.

he hasn't streamed in a while, not because he didn't want to but because he thought the fans didn't love him anymore.

the motivation was gone due to the fact that george couldn't feel the love and support.

he started to second guess himself on everything he did. he didn't want to post videos only for people not to enjoy.

when it was actually the opposite on how his fans felt about him. they loved him so much, everything he did was amazing for them.

and yet, still george felt that they all hated him, like he wasn't and will never be good enough. and that killed him inside.

he heard a knock on his front door but choose to ignore it.

then he heard the front door open and close which was weird because only one person had the key to his house.

suddenly his bedroom door opened, "it looks like shit in here" sapnap said as he closed the bedroom door again.

"haha thanks for the input," george said sarcastically with his back faced towards the door.

"why haven't you been answering my calls?" sapnap asked setting down his keys on george's desk.

"i've been busy" george whispered obviously lying.

"yeah sure you have..." sapnap laid down on the bed next to george who sighed and turned around to face the other.

"is it happening again?" sapnap whispered sympathetically, running his fingers through the others hair. he knew that this was a constant cycle with george at least once every couple months. and he would always be here to reassure the other.

all george could do was nod while tears laid on the cusps of his eyes.

sapnap sighed as he sat up and picked george up making him wrap his legs around the other.

sapnap walked out the dirty room into the kitchen as george's legs dangled on the side of sapnap as hips.

they never established what there relationship status was. it was obviously more then friends and dream would tease them about it all the time calling them 'friends with benefits'

they shared long hugs and cuddles with each other, even kisses. but they were just friends.. right?

sapnap opened the freezer and took frozen waffles out and popped them into the toaster.

he hummed a slight tune swaying back and forth with the other in his arms.

george loved the feeling of sapnaps warmth. it one of the only things that he craved in life. he relaxed into sapnaps chest.

"i'm sorry" he whispered.

"why are you sorry hun?" sapnap cooed as he took the waffles out the toaster and topped them with only syrup and no butter how george liked them.

"you constantly come here and try to help me; which you do but then in like five weeks time it happens again and they hate me" george raised his head from the others chest and looked at him, "you hate me"

sapnap sighed and picked up the plate of waffles and carried them and george to the couch in the living room and placed the waffles on the coffee table.

he sat down and looked at the other who was still on his lap, "and why would i hate you?"

"i don't know- because i'm- i'm annoying and a bad friend and ugly and worthless and you hate me-" george spoke quickly and was cut off by sapnap placing a kiss on his lips.

they stayed there together in the kiss of a moment, enjoying each other. sapnap pulled away first, "i love you george, don't you dare ever talk about yourself like that, okay?"

"you love me?" george looked at sapnap with tears in his eyes.

"yes; i- love- you-" sapnap said with a kiss between each word. george giggled.

"do you think they hate me still?" george asked by 'them' he was referring to his fans.

sapnap pulled his phone out his pocket and went onto george's twitter, which his last tweet was from three weeks ago. he clicked the replies to the tweet and showed george.

the tweet was spammed with thousands of comments on how they missed and loved george.

sapnap closed his phone and slipped it back into his pocket, "i think they still love you, as always"

george gave sapnap a sad smile as sapnap pulled george off his lap and placed him next to him.

he handed the plate of waffles to george whispering a little, "eat, i know you haven't in days" which was normal whenever george felt this way.

sap grabbed the remote and put on george's favorite movie; harry potter.

he wrapped an arm around george as they cuddled while the movie played.

when george finished his waffles he placed the plate back on the table and tackled the other playfully.

sapnap giggled at the others playful manner while george tried to give the him as many kisses as possible.

finally they shared one long kiss, "do you want to spend the night?" george asked shyly.

"well, that obviously what i'm here for," sapnap rolled his eyes and hugged the other firmly placing a kiss on george's forehead.

george definitely loved this man.

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(wc: 903)

-sorry this is so shit i have no idea how to end oneshots
-next chapter is kinky smut so ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)
-much love as always

-angelina🌸