𝗺𝗰𝘆𝘁 𝗼𝗻𝗲𝘀𝗵𝗼𝘁𝘀 [𝘀𝗺𝘂𝘁,𝗳𝗹𝘂𝗳𝗳,𝗮𝗻𝗴𝘀𝘁]

sleep well pretty boy [karlnap] 💛

all he did was sit at his pc, legs pulled to his chest, baggy sweater draped around his shoulder. late at night, sometimes karl wished he didn't move out of his roommates house. the floor is so cold and the atmosphere is dim. his fairy lights twinkle when in view of the moon, reflecting it's light.

karl always slept with the window opened. his bed right next to window, the cool breeze that flows in and makes quiet noise. the stars are oddly dim tonight, not as bright as usual though still beautiful.

he loves watching old streams of him and the boys. the laughs they have. of course karl loves living in north carolina with jimmy and his friends. but sometimes he wonders what it would be like to have dinner with george or watch a movie with alex, watching football with dream... holding hands with nick.

he always had a special relationship with nick, of course he loved the others but nick was just so, different. his smiles meant more and his voice rang louder in his ears then others.

covid has really put a stop in his life. he can't go anywhere or do anything. they all grew so close to each other over this time that it was almost unreal that they haven't met in real life.

sometimes karl imagines what it'll be like to be in nick's arms or run his fingers threw nick's hair, to... feel his lips on his own.

but karl tried to block his feelings away, he knew nick was just his best friend and nothing more. he couldn't bring himself to a fantasy that doesn't exist.

still, he'll let tears sit on the cusps of his eyes, while he watched videos he wish he could live. he was taken out of his thoughts when his discord started ringing.

——> sapnap is calling

he picked it up immediately and waited for sapnap to speak, "karl?" his voice was raspy like he just woke up

karl blushed deeply, turning his volume on discord, "hey,"

"hey why are you up so late?" nick asked.

"hey, what do you mean 'why am i up' you're the one that called!," karl said as nick laughed,

"i know, i know, im just up because i slept in all day, why are you up mr.jacobs,"

"im just not tired!," karl said quickly, not wanting to have nick worry about him.

"hey, you can talk to be karl, im always here to listen," his voice got more lovable than ever, so caring and kind.

karl sighed, looking at his knees and playing with his fingers, "it's hard to sleep by myself, since i've moved out it's so quiet here and i just want someone to hold me— wait, shit, sorry i didn't mean it like that,"

"it's okay karl," you could almost see his face get soft, "you want to facetime and we can sleep together? will that help you?,"

karl blushed even more, "oh, no no, you don't have to i know you have things to do–"

"don't worry about it, call me on your phone okay,"

karl hung up and called nick, walking to his bed, when he picked up, you could see nicks face, so gentle and calm, "hi pretty boy," nick said.

karl moved his face from the camera quickly, getting all flustered, "stoppp," he squeezed his eyes shut.

they both laughed a little as they both tucked themselves into bed, saying good night to each other,

"i love you, " nick said softly before he dozed off to sleep.

"i love you too," kar whispered, touching his lips with his cold finger tips.

"i love you more," nick said again.

impossible, karl thought, absolutely impossible