𝗺𝗰𝘆𝘁 𝗼𝗻𝗲𝘀𝗵𝗼𝘁𝘀 [𝘀𝗺𝘂𝘁,𝗳𝗹𝘂𝗳𝗳,𝗮𝗻𝗴𝘀𝘁]

enough for you [georgenap] 🖤/💛

thank you MilesHQ for the request!

[THE TYPOS ARENT EDITED OUT OF THIS CUZ I GOT LAZY; i'll do it later i promise]

tw: mention of self harm, panic attack
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at the end of the day, everything will always be different.

you could follow the same schedule every day but at it will never be exact. you will always be a second behind. you can never pinpoint anything exactly.

you never actually know who you will fall in love with.

it can be the weirdest thing ever.

but when sapnap stares, at the most beautiful boy in the room; as they sat on the bed together, he knows that he definitely didn't plan for this to happen.

the beautiful glow that rested upon the brunette was irresistible almost. the heat he radiated is like a good type of hell. i couldn't even describe to you the beauty of his dark orbs that literally added years to ones lifespan. george could literally save someone from death with a look, a glare of love and a smile of hope.

the glints in his eyes that promised life and freedom with in ones self .

but the thing is, as the two sat on the bed together, they weren't talking about their future together...they were talkings about george's with no one other than, dream.

"god sap, i know i used to say i didn't love dream, but damn, after moving in with you guys i swear to fucking hell i want him so bad"

of course he does. of course he wants dream.

in his defense. dream was the perfect boy. a simulation of a version that every girl drools over.

and sapnap was, well, sapnap.

and don't get me wrong that wasn't a bad thing.

it's just that, when someone so utterly perfect falls into your life and you want them so bad, but they want the one sitting next to you...it hurts.

george and sapnap where like, may i say perfect? they were perfect for each other.

but dream was destined to be with george. it just how life is.

and sapnap has to deal with it, knowing that he can never have what he wants in life.

"george...can i ask you something" the younger mumbled out, fiddling with his fingers, starting to pick the skin from them.

george saw this immediately and grabbed the others hand and held one of them, brushing his knuckles with his thumb.

"we talked about this sap, i know your anxiety's bad but we can't resort to...hurting yourself.." george said solemnly as he looked at the other, and his arms.

sap hadn't even noticed all worked up he had gotten. he was practically shaking all over. tears were staring to pool in his eyes and his vision was becoming blurry.

while the man he wanted most comforted him.

it sucks that after this conversation they would never be like this again.

"i- do you- do you think i'm ugly?" sapnap hung his head low.

"what? why would i think you're ugly?" george's held tilted a little in confusion.