Where You Belong :: junhao

WYB :: 43

*minghao*

mom and i exchanged stares at each other prolly she was trying to sink what ive asked her inside her mind. but the more that she wasnt responding to me time to time, the more i was getting confuse about my feelings. geez. this was the first time i felt that way, i had never knew that this moment could happen that i want my mom to answer my question kasi hindi ko na kayang sagutin to para sa sarili ko. kaines.

i heave a sighed, "does it normal, mom?. . or i mean, okay?" i had to broke my silence because if i would never talk again, the silence might be the end of us. plus i do really wanted to get out of this confusion!

geez. this wen junhui was making a trouble inside my head and was making me confuse

!

my mom smiled to me. "i think, it isnt." she finally utter after her long silence. parang pinagisipan nya pa kung anong isasagot nya sakin. oh well, she seemed surprise na ganon yung itatanong ko.

i ruffled my hair, getting more confuse. "then why am i feeling this kind of feelings? i mean. . i was so occupied with the idea of him. i keep reminiscing how he made me feel loved, free, uncontrolled and not beholden?" i pulled my hair down as i stared at my mom like as if i was a kid throwing tantrums. "okay pa ba to, ma? in love na ba ko ulit?" i asked one more time.

she laughed about what she was witnessing about me right now as she sat on the space next to me here at my king-sized bed. oh, i haven't told you yet, were here inside my room and pumasok lang sya to check me kagaya nang lagi nyang ginagawa and she caught me zoning out while placing back my clothes to my cabinet.

the smile on her face didnt fade then she held my hand that was on my clothes. "does it feel the same way you used to feel before? kasi by now, you should known it yourself kung maiinlove ka ba or hindi. dapat kilala mo na sarili mo anak kung saan ka dadalhin nang nararamdaman mo." she rubbed the back of my palm using her thumb, trying to soothe me which was effective.

i heave a sighed. "yun nga ma, e." using my free hand, napasapo nalang ako nang noo ko. "hindi ko naman to naramdaman kay mingming noon." then i graoned in frustration at the end of my statement and i shook my head still holding my forehead.

this topic was really making my feelings into a deep confusion! yup, i got it what my mom was telling me. ive known myself enough since then when ive finally accepted that mingming and i are nothing now and the moment ive knew i could live without him. pero kasi yung topic na to at yung nararamdaman ko na to is iba! it was like some kind of indescribable feelings. taena talaga nung lalaking yun ang laking pahamak sa utak at puso ko!

bakit ba kasi ako pumayag na makipaghalikan sakanya every time we want to?! geez.

my mom laughed again. "si jun ba yan?" i immediately looked up to see my mom as my eyes widened and my cheeks burned in no time along with my heart started to beat rapidly after hearing his name. putchang pusa anoba! awkward tuloy akong tumango kay mama. she laughed again. "i cant answer you directly, pero kung sabi mo na hindi ka pa nakakamove on kay mingming, you shouldn't fall in love with somebody else that fast."