Where You Belong :: junhao

WYB :: 90

*minghao*

i opened the vans door the moment it stop on the side to where the park was that you could see the whole view of the eiffel tower. i looked at my manager, sora, to my stylist and even to my driver prolly asking them permission if they would let me. both sora and my manager nodded at me which made me heave a sighed as i slowly went out of the van. and the moment i went out of the van, a cold late night breeze greeted me making me hugged myself. i wasnt with my coat anymore.

i took a deep breathe then i swallowed hard before i slowly took a step away from the van and i dont know how come could i walked more nearer to the tower, and now i was seeing it full view. thanks to the color yellow lights that supports for the tower to looked even more magical even if its night, and that light was also the reason why you could see how tall it was, and how it almost touch the sky. when my eyes went up until to the top of it, i raised my hand trying to reach for the top of it even if its impossible.

for the past years that i became a model, it wasnt new to be here almost plenty of times already since paris are one of the big four countries who're holding a huge fashion industry in the whole wide world. but being able to stand next to this beatiful eiffel tower made me felt like it was the first time i came here. . or maybe i did because for the past years ive been pacing back and forth here, this was the first time i tried to finally had the courage to see this tower on my own. .

and you know the reason why all those years, this was the first time being here this close to this tower? its because i couldnt. kasi hindi ko kayang akyatin yung pinaka-taas nito nang mag-isa.

i swallowed hard as i felt how my eyes started to fill with water. "h-hindi ko kaya, baby. . i cant do it on my own so im sorry, im sorry that up until now i still havent tried climbing this tower." and at the very end of my statement, tears already cascade through my cheeks. "i need a companion, i need you with me. i need you, baby. hindi ko kaya mag-isa."

this! this is another reason why i avoided and why i dont have any courage to be this close to this tower because the memories of the past would surely ricochet in my head and eto na nga yun! it reminded me of how junhui and i promised to each other that we'll going to climb this to the top together, but look at us right now. nasaan sya? nasaan ako? nasaan yung kami?! yup! yup i wanted him to go for him to live before but the memories we had shared together was all enough to break my heart.

now, i finally understand why he told me that he'll be with me every step i take. because its either he'll be with me physically or he'll be with me through my heart and soul. and after all those years without him, it ended like he's with me, if i looked closer to my heart. i do really felt so dumb for myself why i didnt notice that before, i felt so selfish na sarili ko lang inisip ko that time. it was already an indications, it was already a sign. . yet i ignored. if only i did paid attention to that, we could've been here together.

he could've been here with me instead of other people. . we could've been reached the top of the eiffel tower already. im sorry, im so sorry, my love.

"if only you know. . you have reached the top of it already." i jerked my head to my left side and saw my manager was standing next to me already as she was looking at the same view that reminded me of the past. "junhui strongly believe that you can do it on your own, and here you are now. a supermodel, you've reached more than a celebrity could do. you've climbed it up minghao, you've climbed to the top."

"nushi. ."

she smiled. "wherever he was right now, i know how much he's proud of whatever you are as of the moment. you made him more prouder than you think you could. and he also want you to know that he's happy, both for you. . and for wherever he is."