Where You Belong :: junhao

WYB :: 85

*minghao*

i stared still while watching how my boyfriend would react to what he was seeing over on the screen of my phone. . and i dont know why but my heart shrink at the same time melt upon seeing how his eyes widened then he even zoomed my phone screen to whats on it clearly using his thumb and forefinger but unlike my reactions earlier, he seemed like he had already knew that my name would be included at that specific list.

because for me, i felt like what i did during those whole six months at the first sem of the school year didnt made me satisfied. . at all. you all know that my ex was the one who pushed me to take that course and that path so it made me somehow hard to keep or to cope up with my classmates abilities knowing them that they're sure that being an engineering is what they want for themselves in the future. sobrang layo nang tinatahak ko ngayon sa course na inaaral ko. so i wasnt really expecting, that my name would literally be included there.

oh, its a lists of all students in our college who got included and got the title, the deans listers. changsub and jaehyun had informed me about it thru kakaotalk, hindi ko sana papansinin since i dont really care about that announcements kasi alam ko sa sarili kong hindi ako kasama, but good thing that i did checked because i saw my name there. . as one of the deans listers for this first sem and its my responbility to keep on that lane for me to have a cum laude sa graduation.

which literally, wala naman akong pake. as long as i passed all my subjects and im able to graduate, im all good at that. im all that satisfied.

"sabi ko na nga ba kasama ka e! i had been pressuming it inside my head and now baby, your name is here!"

as i told you, he seemed like he expected to see my name there like as if i do really were going to be included. as far as i remember, i didnt do anything but to comply to everything what our profs tasked us to do even that plates, presentations, projects then some exams. . or maybe, he saw how i worked so hard just to comply on time with those plates and projects and i remember how he kept on praising me every time i finished doing one of those.

but still. . i felt like it wasnt enough. like i wasnt satisfied. . like i wasnt really happy. siguro kasi hindi naman talaga to yung gusto ko? i dont know. i dont know why i couldn't be happy after knowing i was really included in that specific list.

junhui jerked his head to me then he smiled so wide. "im so proud of you, baby!" but his smile slowly faded prolly he saw that i wasnt flushing the same reactions as his. his brows furrowed. "whats wrong? arent you happy? you're included in the list baby, you're one of the deans lister."

i moved closer to him then i wrapped my left arm on his waist, hugging him from the side. "happy. . im happy, as long as you're proud of me." i smiled at him and the moment i smiled, i dont know but i felt my heart shrink. "hearing you proud of me was enough to know that everything i did to passed this sem was worth it."

he let out a small smile. "i know this is not the course that you want in the first place. . but here you are, you just didnt survive the second to the last sem before its over, you made it. . baby, you made it to one of the tops." binaba nya yung phone ko sa nightstand then he cupped my cheeks using his both hands. "it only means one thing, kahit ano kaya mong gawin. . you wouldn't be in this if you cant and thats how im so proud of you."

"im always proud of you, baby."

"t-thank you." i honestly dont know what to say. even if i heard it from him and he made me convince enough that i could do it, but it hits differently now.