Where You Belong :: junhao

WYB :: 60

*minghao*

to felineman: can we meet tonight? at han river.

i throw my phone on the coffee table and i covered my face because of not having any confidence to face that man after what happened last night. i still could hear in my both ears how he sounded when he told me that he loves me! and i was upset because of that words, i was confuse of my feelings right now tapos sumabay pa tong si mingming! i dont really want to see him nor to talk to him but i was forced and was left no choice because for sure hindi ako titigilan nang tatlong hyungs ko na to.

yup, as what jihoon hyung said, i should inform junhui about mingmings sudden comeback and my sudden decisions of giving him a second chance tapos yung dalawa naman, umagree so wala talaga akong choice. and it was too late for me to realize that right now, among the four of us, i was the youngest one since wala si seoks at si kwan. and knowing wonwoo and jihoon hyungs, they were so persistent lalo na ngayon mukhang nageenjoy sila!

the three of my friends waited for junhui to reply from my message while i keep distracting myself by eating the ramen na malamig na since kanina pa to and because they keep on blabbing, i couldnt eat properly. honestly, i was nervous. . my heart keep on beating faster because i dont really know how to face that guy after what happened and for sure, it'll be awkward. we used to mock, tease and argue with each other every time were going to meet, but right now. . i could imagine us being distant.

or baka ako lang maging distant. . he looked and sounded confident the last time sabihin yung feelings nya sakin e.

it took more than five minutes before my phone rang, indication that someone has sent me a message which made the three of my hyungs almost bumped their heads to each other just to see who sent me a message. i didnt dart them a glance and keep eating my foods though, i couldnt do it properly since my hands were trembling because of nervousness. i never felt this nervous before! nakakainis na wen junhui!

"oo daw myungho! pumayag!"

i shut my eyes firmly but after a second, but i opened it again to breathe. calm down minghao. calm down. "let me see." then i showed my hand for them to give me my phone. its not like i dont trust them, i just. . want to see it using my eyes that junhui really replied back and agreed.

felineman: okay :) see you, then?

so. . i guess i dont really have a choice but to meet him already. plus for sure, if ever i complained, these three hyungs i was with right now will forced me again and i know to myself what would i ended up to. they gave me advices, what should i do and what should i act the moment i was with jun already later. but the hell, how could i do it one by one if my body and mind was the ones who would decide what would i do later and for sure hindi naman ako makakapag-isip nang matino!

it was already six in the evening when we finished eating and talking about me being that tanga. hindi pa nga magtigil bunganga ni jihoon hyung that made me embarrassed tapos sinaluhan pa ni seungkwan kasi narinig nya. nakakainis! i went inside my unit down to my room to lay down and covered my face using my both hands and silently screamed there. hindi ko talaga alam gagawin ko mamaya nor how to start it! bakit kasi need ko pang sabihin yun sakanya?!