Where You Belong :: junhao

WYB :: 72

*minghao*

my hand was still covering my mouth and i was still crying just like what i was doing earlier but the only difference was, it became loud and it became more painful as my heart kept on shrinking. my mind had never predicted that junhui has that kind of disease, because i thought that it was an asthma and it was from his lungs. . but it didnt. because it was worse than the worst. it was his heart. . it was a heart failure, a heart that his source of life. . our bodies one of the most important parts.

so. . this is the reason why he keep on telling me that i was always making him hard to breathe. because whenever i was doing something sweet towards him, his heart would always flutter as it couldn't handle that much happiness. and im asking myself how didnt i noticed those before? he had already showed me enough proof that he has a heart failure, and which was even cancerous. i was felt so dumb for myself for believing that those words are his symbol of love. .

that i didnt even just took his heart away, but even his breathe. sobrang tanga ko. ang tanga tanga ko. im so dumb on that part that i was with him almost everyday before yet i didnt even noticed it clearly. . that regimen. . if only i looked a little more closer. ang tanga ko talaga.

"h-his doctor had informed us yesterday that his disease became worse and now stage d. . the last stage of heart failure and which means, all the medications we did, didnt worked well according to what is planned."

i shut my eyes and shook my head right after i heard it from tita jiang. it was getting worse and worse each time and even right now that he wasnt doing anything and just resting there on the hospital bed, what he have inside his body keep on functioning and it keep devouring his whole body. i never really imagined that we would be like this, that we could be like this. i was blaming myself for not noticing it sooner, if only i did. . if only i am.

"i cant blame my son enough if he doesnt want to get treated nor he wasnt taking it seriously, kasi minghao. . hindi naman talaga sya seryoso sa gamot nya, but not until he met you. ." i opened my eyes the moment i heard then i jerked my head to tita jiang and she was staring at his son who're lying on the hospital bed. i tried to speak up, but those just ended up a sobbed. tita jiang wipe her tears away. "and he became more serious taking everything what he needs, when he realized how much he loves you. he loves you to the point that he was trying to get treated, kasi nga ayaw ka nyang masaktan."

"its so sad to say, but it wasnt working well. he was too late. hindi naagapan kaagad. and i can't blame you also for coming to my son's life late than it was, because right now minghao. . im so thankful. im so thankful for giving a light, a hope to my son."

that made me sobbed so hard as my heart shrinked over and over. . "i-im sorry. . im sorry tita. kung alam ko lang since then i could've pushed him to take the treatment more sooner. im sorry."

that's why. . thats why he started to take healthy foods as the only food he could eat, and he even pushed me to take the same foods as him para may kasabay syang kumain nang ganong pagkain. and even how he told me that he was really trying not to hurt me. . eto pala yun. and ever since then, ever since then he has feelings for me already. mahal nya na ko when he started to show me that kind of act. . he do really loved me, ever since.