More than just cake - Lawliet x OC -

Ramen

Some things I want to say about this chapter - first, a trigger warning for suicidal thoughts! If you're suffering from those too, you might want to skip this chapter - or at least read with caution. I am a depression survivor and I tend to write about those things... kind of self therapy, I think?  (If you need someone to talk to, feel free to message me.)

Sooo, what else?

In this chapter we have Matsu being the adorable idiot we all love. And also we get to meet Gevanni (he's in the picture too)! I had so much fun writing Fay and Gevanni - they work together so well, lol. 

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January 6th 2010

Fay was horny.

She had felt that way for the past four days, ever since she had watched Matsuda walk out of her hotel suite, leaving behind only the scent of his aftershave, and his phone number on a piece of paper, crumpled in the trash can.

It was a hollow ache in her tummy, it was shivering on her spine, it was a burning need in her veins - a need to be touched, to be filled, to be made whole again.

To be fucked, thoroughly.

And to make it worse, she knew exactly she only needed to make one phone call, and it would happen.

She was horny when she woke up in the morning.

She was horny when she got to the HQ, when she took her lunch break, when she spent hours and hours tailing Mikami, making notes of his every single move.

She was horny when she returned to her hotel room in the evening, lay down on her bed and stared at the ceiling, feeling more alone than she had ever felt in her life.

It had been a long time, since she had felt like this. After L's death, she had thought she could never let a man touch her again. She had thought he had taken that part of her with him, leaving her withered and empty. But now... it was like a switch had been turned on in her mind, and suddenly she remembered what life was really about.

There had to be more to it, than just mourning.

Was it really so wrong to want... something else?

Why don't you just call him? You know you want to. Besides, L said it's fine by him. Right?

Still, she lasted four days, until she was desperate enough to give in.

The cold January air of Tokyo blowing her hair around her face, Fay leaned her back on a ginkgo tree, and pulled her phone from the pocket of her jacket.

Matsuda answered almost immediately - and Fay felt her heart skipping a beat at the sound of his familiar voice.

"You alone?" she asked.

"Uh, oh!" he gasped. "Fay, that's really you?"

Fay rolled her eyes.

"God, I really hope you are alone, for saying my name out like that."

"Yeah, yeah!" Matsuda made a small laugh. "I'm alone, alright."

"Just in case, though--" she continued. "If I ever call you again, you shouldn't use my name on the phone."

"Yeah, sure. I promise! God, I'm just so glad... I'm so glad you called."

There was a small silence between them. Fay bit her lip.