More than just cake - Lawliet x OC -

Chardonnay

If you're a writer yourself, you might know the feeling of never being satisfied or happy with your writing. That certainly is true for me - I am overly critical of all I write! I'm very rarely happy with anything I've written, thinking that this is all just rubbish, rubbish, rubbish... 

Having said that - I really like this chapter. I'm rather pleased with the way it turned out - and I'm never pleased with my writing.

As always, please vote and comment. That makes me so very happy.

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January 2nd, 2010

Fay stared into the night that had fallen over Tokyo, the illuminated skyscrapers, the neverending lights of traffic, of cars and trains, the blinking neon signs and screens of the shops and restaurants, all blending into an ocean of brightness. In the distance, Tokyo Skytree towered over the city, pink and blue, like a shining beacon in the night.

Light, light, light everywhere. It was never really dark here.

You can't see the stars in a place like this. To see the stars, you have to be in the dark.

Fay missed darkness. She missed Wammy's house, where the nights were pitch black, soft like velvet. Darkness was safety. Safety of her own room, behind thick closed curtains and locked doors, in a silent house full of sleeping children.

She missed home. She missed her room, her old, wooden canopy bed that she still shared with Lily, even if she was four years old already. A dagger of pain pierced Fay's heart as she remembered her. On nights like this, when she couldn't sleep, Lily was all she could think of.

Her warmth in the bed by Fay's side - like a living radiator. Her restless little feet, that always kicked the sheets off. Her nightmares, her sleepwalking, the way she laughed in her dreams.

Lily's absence was a physical pain in Fay's core, like missing a part of her own body. Like she had lost a limb, or an inner organ. Leaving Lily behind had been the hardest thing she had ever done in her life.

But it had been necessary.

27 days. Near promised this will be over then.

And I'll see Lily again.

She had to believe that. What else was there, if she gave up hope?

Fay turned her back to the window, and closed the curtains with a sigh.

Matsuda was sleeping in her bed, lying on his belly, sheet covering his naked form from waist down. His hair was a mess, falling to his forehead, undisciplined and boyish. The lean, strong arms and shoulders were revealed to Fay's gaze, and she had to admit that it was a nice sight. God knew, it had been long enough since she'd had a man in her bed!

Five years.

It had been five years since...

Fay crossed her arms, and worried at her lower lip with her teeth.

It probably hadn't been the best idea to hook up with Matsuda, though. Now that the heat had left her body, Fay felt remorseful.

You should've thought this through. What the Hell are you going to say to him in the morning?

It wasn't like this was the first time she had second thoughts after sex. But this time was different, because she actually cared for Matsuda. He was a nice guy, and he sure as Hell didn't deserve the cold treatment Fay was prepared to give him in the morning. But what choice did she have? Matsuda was practically an enemy. For all Fay knew, he was still Light's lapdog.