Mutt ~GxG~

Chapter 17

Bridgette's POV

I'm not sure what went through my head this morning but I knew I would be confident. I still was confident until well, this. Listen, I was talking to Laith and she was the one with the hybrid mate and apparently he trusted me but she didn't know why and although I know she decided to talk to me about stuff. He was a sorcerer hybrid after all, he could probably sense that I was a mutt or some equally magical solution. I never was the best with magic, it confused me, even if I can literally turn into a cat. Or a wolf. Or a bear. And eagle too I guess. I'm not sure, for me it just existed. I knew it existed and stuff happened when you used it but that's it. Off topic. Anyways, just talking with her and later Nico made me feel- safe I guess. I'm not sure how to describe it, but I felt relaxed and I'm not sure why but just being there relaxed me. I think I was possessed when I made this decision because what the fuck am I doing? I don't wanna do this? I mean it's too late to back out now but is it really? I manage to seek out the courage to look at Leah and she nods encouragingly. I take another deep breath. Just get it out, get it over with.

"I'm a mutt." I say nervously. My statement is followed by silence from both me and Leah. It makes sense though, I mean she should have time to process it but soon it grows a bit too long. It starts out as a couple of minutes but those few minutes grow into five, and then ten, and then fifteen.

It's been too long.

She hates me. I know it. I never should've told her, this breaks my brother's rules. She hasn't accepted, why did I tell her? She's definitely gonna reject me now. Shit, I should've waited. Oh shit I definitely fell too quickly. I'm gonna lose her. I'm gonna lose her again. I could've stopped this, I should have avoided this. I could've avoided this. Oh god this is my fault. I'm going to lose her and it's my-

"Hey, hey! Bridgette! Look at me!" Something is shaking me. Someone is shaking me. My thoughts first go to my brother, who else would be? No one else would be this concerned over me. Strong hands clasped themselves on my shoulders and the face appeared in my field of vision.

"Leah?" I try to ask, but it comes out as a hoarse mumble. I focus in on her and she's in a state of panic, her eyes widened while she frantically looks around the room for something.

"Hey, you'll be okay, I swear! I- I-" Her eyes widen further and her pupils dilate as she realizes she can't find the thing. It comes to mind maybe she's concerned about me

"Leah." Her eyes find mine and somehow she seems more panicked than I do. "I'll be okay, it's just a panic attack."

"Just a panic attack? How many have you had?" I take a deep breath and place my hands on her shoulders as well. "I was so scared, you just told me that and I didn't know what to say and it was really quiet and- and you just- the hyperventilating and you almost collapsed I think and I didn't know what to do and- I- god." She looks at me pleadingly. "Don't ever worry me like that again." One of my hands leaves her shoulder and grabs her hand.

"I won't" my eyes flicker down to her lips, she's so close. She lowers herself and I find my eyes on hers once more.

"I don't care that you're a mutt," She started softly. "I could care less if you were a god damned watermelon. I care for you more than you could even comprehend and every second I'm in your presence I fall harder for you." She lets out a pained laugh that breaks my heart. "I tried everything I could to court you, to get you to trust me even a little and everything I did would push you further away from me. I've only just gotten you to trust me and I'm still scared I'm gonna push you away." I shake my head.

"It wasn't you, it was never you, I have so much to tell you." I whisper. "I have to- no. I want to tell you so much, everything." I smile and take a breath "But if you've run out of moves, let me make some." Maybe it was in the heat of the moment, or maybe I was possessed cause I sure didn't make this choice in my right mind. Maybe it wasn't even me who initiated it.

But then I held her hands, and leaned in.

And then sparks flew.

This one's rather short but it was about goddamn time. Like Jesus H I've been waiting and yeah, sure, I'm writing this book and have no right to be impatient but I was listening to Come From Away, Okay? And starting AOT and Percy Jackson (Never had time to get into it) and Hilda's so cute, I know it's for children but come on.