Sacrifice

He's a selffish bitch

Harry had come home, again.

He came home at 8 in the morning while I was sleeping. When I opened my eyes I had breakfast in bed in front of me and Harry was just standing there in his boxers. "Good morning babe" was the first thing he said and I got a smile on my face. He gave me breakfast in bed almost every morning these days. Why might you wonder? Well, because he and Olivia Wild pretend to date each other.

He has to be with her during the day and then he usually sleeps over (in the gesture room, of course, he always says but I do not believe that). I may have believed it for the first three months but now I know he's sleeping with her in her bed. He even smells like her now when he is home.

"Wow Harry! Breakfast in bed again!" I said sarcastically. He sat down on the bed and gave out a breath. "I'm sorry Lou. It was late yesterday again and I thought I could cheer you up with breakfast in bed but also another thing when you have eaten up." He looked at me with his secret gaze and I already knew what he meant.

Not that I don't want to do what he would do to me later, but I began to get tired of it. It's always the same. Breakfast in bed, we have sex and then we shower before he goes to Olivia again. He never stays longer than at least 12 in the morning.

"Harry I really appreciate this but we'll probably have to talk" He took my hand and looked at me with his kind green eyes. How would I say this? We can not fight again. We still have not solved what we were arguing about yesterday, or the day before that.

"You can tell me everything Louis" I let go of his eyes and looked at our hands. I tried to think about how our conversation could go in my head but it just ended with us arguing. "I want you to be home more Harry" I looked up into his eyes again and he was still looking at me. "What do you mean Louis? I'm home now"

I shake my head. Sure he was home now but he would soon leave, leave me again. I began to doubt us after these three months he started being with Olivia."No, you're never home. You always come at 8 in the morning, make breakfast for me and then we have sex. We shower and then you go again. You're never home Harry. You just do not understand it"

I saw that his eyes began to close, which meant that he began to get angry. He thought I was wrong.

But he did't know how I felt about all this. He may think it's fun to get me breakfast and have sex with me but I don't like it anymore. I liked when he fell asleep in my arms in the evenings when we watched movies. I always had to wake him up so he could go to bed. Sometimes it did't work and then we both slept on the couch. This is what i liked to do whit him but not what Harry loved to do whit me.

"Louis you know I try to be home as much as possible!" He replied. Of course I understood that it was hard with Olivia but sometimes it feels like he did't care at all. He knows I'll be home when he gets home, so he does't worry.

"But it does not feel like it. It feels like you only care about her and your career" Those words were not meant to come out of my mouth. He let go of my hand and got up from the bed. "Louis you know nothing."

"Talk to me then. Tell me why you're not home!"

He did't answer, he just looked at me. I could see tears starting to form in his eyes and it made my heart burst. We had started arguing again.

"I can't"

"Why?"

He went quiet.

"Harry you have to tell me why you can't be home. Be home with me!"

"I just can't tell you"

"Harry you are just a selfish bitch"

Now he just stood there and looked at me. I did't mean the words I had said, but I still said them. I just wanted to know why he was't home but he did't want to tell me.

"Harry i'm sorry" But it was too late he had already left the bedroom and closed the door behind him. I also heard how the front door closed and how his car drove away from our driveway. He was gone, again

I picket up my phone and wrote him a quick SMD that he would come home again. After a few seconds, my phone rang and I opened it and realized that I had happened to write in the One direction group. Niall and Liam now also knew that Harry and I had had a fight.

SKIT!

In the grupp:

BOUBEAR 🔝 : HARRY! Please i'm sorry!

BOUBEAR🔝: Please come back

PAYNO: Louis

BOUBEAR🔝: CRAP!

NIALLER😂: Louis? What happened to Harry?

HAZZA 🎀: He's a selffish bitch

BOUBEAR🔝: I said I was sorry!

HAZZA🎀: But you still said it and it hurt me Louis!

PAYNO: Louis what did you say?

HAZZA🎀: He said i did't love him and that I should go back to Olivias house. Then he said that I was just only thinking about my career and that I never loved him.

BOUBEAR🔝: I only said that because I was mad at you because you are never home!

HAZZA🎀: I don't choose this Louis and you know it.

BOUBEAR🔝:But you are not trying to fix anything either?

HAZZA🎀: I try and that's why i'm never home

BOUBEAR🔝: Sure and I'm santa!

He knows now how I feel and it feels like he does't care that I miss him. I don't know how to fix this but I want Harry to come home. If he continues like this, I have no choice but to go.