Sacrifice

I will never stop loving you

Neither Louis nor Harry found the courage to write, but they both want it more than anything else.

They both knew they had to do it so there was no way out but to just write in the group.

Louis pov:

LOUBEAR🔝: I'M SORRY HARRY

HAZZA🎀: I'M SORRY LOUIS

We wrote it just at the same time and this made everything a little better for me. This means that we both feel that we have to fix this because we love each other too much to let the other go.

I was still sitting in bed and had just stopped crying but I still felt like I wanted to cry. I wanted to cry for so many things. I wanted to cry because I said everything I said that morning to Harry, I want to cry because that Harry and I are always arguing, I want to cry because I'm the worst fiance in the world who can not accept my fiancé's job. I just wanted Harry to come home and hug me and say that everything would be fine again. As we did before.

I did't know what more I should write in the group and I don't know if Harry would write anything else either. Maybe these are thewords we wanted to say and nothing more. But I wanted to write so much more. I wanted to write all the feelings I have for Harry and then I also wanted to cry about how much I miss him.

HAZZA🎀: No, I am the one who should say sorry. I've just ignored you for the last few months and I'm always running away because i don't know how to talk to you. I'm sorry I'm never home or falling asleep in your arms. Please Louis! Forgive me!

After Harry had written in a group again, the tears came back. I wanted to forgive him and I would do it but he needed to fix things too before I could forgive him 100%.

HAZZA🎀: And I understand if you don't love me anymore

He did not know how much I loved him and the thought that he thought this was awful. My heart broke when I read those words. "If you do not love me anymore." I loved him more than anything. I just had not been able to show it for a long time.

LOUBEAR🔝: I will never stop loving you 

He is my first and last love and I would never forget or hide my love for him.

LOUBEAR🔝: I just want everything to be as before. I want to be with you every second and when we are't with each other I want to be with you because I love you so much.

Everything as it was before. 

Like when we went on our honeymoon. I remember it like yesterday. I remember it like that we never left the boat from there. I just want him to come home and kiss me and then I lie on his lap and he touches my hair. I want to fall asleep in his arms and he will fall asleep in mine.

HAZZA🎀: I want that too. But I made this mistake and I will fix it.

I was going to fix it and it made my heart start beating for us. Harry will fix this and then everything will be as usual again.

HAZZA🎀: I will become a better person and not care what about Olivia and everyone else. You, Louis, are the most important thing I have and I can not lose you. Again

I hate when he uses the word "again". It makes me feel bad about what happened when we were in One direction. I had to leave him. I know we both make the same mistake but, I really could't be with him. He has a choice to come home in the evening or not. No one knows about us right now like they did before. We can be with each other at home and no one will say anything. Things got better but quickly bad again. 

I tried to stop my tears but it did't work. 

I think I'll never stop. 

Not till he told me the words ...