Sacrifice

I've loved you since I was 18

Louis pov:

I sat in the taxi on the way to the airport while my emotions played a game with me. I knew this was so wrong but what would I do? Harry has Olivia if something happens in LA and I know they are't together but I don't know if it's true. 

I trust Harry, I really do but it feels like he does't want to involve me in his secret realtionship like I did with him when I needed to be with Eleanor. 

I had't even texted Harry yet. I knew I needed to write something to Harry before I leave. It's just so hard to say goodbye to the one you love the must but sometime...... I don't know what fellings is anymore.

Harry probably knows that I'm going. Niall or Liam had probably written to him that I'm going and I knew Harry is worried. I know I told him once that I would never do this again but nothing works for me anymore. I can 't see Harry being "in love" with someone when he's married to me. I do completely wrong but still I do exactly right, but in the wrong way.

When I picked up my phone after arriving at the airport, I sat down on a bench and saw ....

12 new text from Harry. 

He had already written to me and I opened the chat

HAZZA💕:Louis!

HAZZA💕: You can't go!

HAZZA💕: I can't lose you!

HAZZA💕:Please answer

HAZZA💕: I promise I'll be with you as long as you stay

HAZZA💕: I love you more then anything else Louis. If you died I....

After reading some of the text messages, I felt the tears begin to burn in my eyes. My Harry. The green eyes boy you can lose yourself in and the soft brown hair.

I closed my eyes and thought about the time I had with Harry.

10 mount ago

"Louis, why can't you just relax and cuddle with me? You can write emails later"

"Harry you don't make life easy when you ask for things like cuddling with you because I love your cuddles"

Suddenly I feel my butt lift off the chair and my favorite arms are around me. "Harry I have to work." I laughed because he tickled me a on my side. 

He laid us both down on the couch and he had his arms around me so hard I could barely breathe. "You don't go anywhere once you have checked the nootbook with me"

10 years ago

"Louis, check out that bear. It's almost as big as you!"

I had surprised Harry with a mini date today and I had taken him to some tivoli. Just as we were about to go home, we passed a stall where you could win a bear and I felt I needed to win it for Harry. "Do you want one?"

"If you want to try, you can win one for me. I would hugged it when you were not with me. It looks a bit like you" We both laughed and I kissed Harry quickly because he looked absolutely beautiful in the light which lay on where we stood. 

"I love you" 

"I love you to boo"

I went to the stall and tried to win the bear and .....

"Harry I'm sorry" 

He turned and looked at me with a sad look.

"But I probably won't fit in our bed anymore"

Harry flew at me and kissed me several times. "Thank you, love you."

After that day Harry had the bear with us wherever we went and when I was't with him he hugged it and he named it little lou

TODAY

A tear went slowly down my cheek and I opened my eyes. Harry had sent several text messages that I slowly read while holding back my tears.

HAZZA💕: I will never forgive myself for a girl coming between us and that I never was allowed to kiss you goodbye!

I miss your lips to mine

HAZZA 💕:Please Louis!

HAZZA 💕: I've loved you since I was 18( I've loved you since I was 16 honey)

I've loved you since I was 18 too my curly hair boy

HAZZA 💕: I know i've been the biggest idiot against you and I hate myself for it. I hate tht I let you get hurt so much that you have to go to your secret place

HAZZA 💕:But I know what they're doing there and I can't let you get lost there. So please Louis stay. Don't stay for me, stay for your own good. Please

I could't handle this. He do so I want to stay in his arms. I just wanted to lie in bed and cuddle with him right now but I would't be able to handel it when he left later. I wrote a quick text I never wanted to send but if I sat and looked at Harry's sms I would go home. 

I can't go home!

LOU💙:Bye Harry

I hate this!