Sacrifice

You remember?

Louis pov

I had just gone through the security check and everything looked good. Everything except my heart. I knew I should't do this. But the brain and the heart say different things and I choose to listen to the brain, which I should't do. I can't be hurt again. I can't to that, I will not make it.

The thoughts of me and Harry spinning around my head all the time and I already missed him. I had't even fly out yet and I missed his hugs and his big heart. He's happy now, I hope. 

I don't really want to see if he had written anything to me because it would make me regret erverything and go home, which I can't do. But I started my phone and immediately a lot of notices came up.

4 sms from Hazza🎀10 missed calls from Hazza🎀 3 missed calls from Liam19 missed calls from Niall

I wanted to open Harry's text message but I did't know if I would be able to do it. But I just wanted to say one last goodbye and say that I love him more than anything else. 

So I opened my and Harry's chat and started reading.

HAZZA💕: Do you remember when we had our honeymoon and we were in Miami before we took the boat, you said one thing that I think about every day.

How could I ever forget that trip. It was our honeymoon.

Honeymoon

We were right now in Miami and were going to the Caribbean for 1 week in our honeymonth. We were now sitting waiting for our boat and Harry had his head on my shoulder. "Can you even imagine we're actually married Lou?" I got a big smile on my face. After all we had been through, we were actually married and happy.

I nodded my head lying on his. "I love you" He removed his head and looked at me. She smiled so you could see his dimples that I loved. That meant he was happy. "But I'm still scared" His smile disappeared and I hugged him and kissed his head.

"Harry I will never leave you" I said and did so he looked me in the eye. "But what if we can not do it and go down again. I do not want it. I love you too much for that."

"Hazza, even if you end up in the blackest hole, I will always get you up again. It may take time, but I know that with the love we have, we can bring each other up even if we were dead"

He nodded at me. "I love you Louis and I will also get you out of the black hole." He kissed me before our boat arrived and we went on. Now our Larry time would begin as it's just me and Harry. Me and my husband.

When we were on the boat we had got something to drink and we just stood and looked out at the ocean. I was finally happy and I hope Harry is too. Everything is perfect right now. "But we will never get to the black hole because we have each other." I mumbled and Harry looked at me with his green eyes I loved. 

"Never".

TODAY

When I had returned from my thoughts about our honeymoon, I had tears in my eyes and I continued to read Harry's text.

HAZZA💕:You said:' Hazza, even if you end up in the blackest hole, I will always get you up again. It may take time, but I know that with the love we have, we can bring each other up even if we were dead.

HAZZA💕: I replied: I love you Louis and I will also get you out of the black hole.

"I love you to"

HAZZA💕: Then we went on the boat and  when we arrived you said: But we will never get to the black hole because we have each other.

We had gone to the bottom again and I hated that I had lied to Harry. I remember exactly what I said that day and that was exactly what Harry had written. I had let him down so many times, over and over again.

LOU💙:You remember?

I could't disappoint him. Even how much it hurt, I answered him and it made me want to go home and hug him.

HAZZA💕:Of course I did and I will never forget it either

I would never forget those days either. We were happy then. We could be ourselves on that trip and no one knew we were there. We were alone. This made me think of all the other faces I had with Harry. All 11 years with him. I would leave everything behind me now?

I don't want that

LOU💙:Harry I don't want to leave

HAZZA💕:Then don't do it. Come home.

HAZZA💕:Whit me.

I wanted to come home, to him. I really wanted to but what would happen then? All the negative thoughts took over the positive thoughts of being with Harry and that made it everything harder for me. I wanted to go home, I wanted to go home, which was Harry.

LOU💙: I can't do that

HAZZA💕: Why?

LOU💙:Because I can't

I can 't go home. Everything gets better if I go. 

I think?