The door guards opened the doors of Sultan Murad's chambers for me. I knew there was no going back after this. I was afraid of who the Sultan was. I entered the chambers looking at the floor and following the tradition. When I approached him, I knelt on my knees and kissed his kaftan.
I wasn't allowed to look at him until he let me. He bent down and put his hand on my chin signaling me I could get up. Fear gripped me at that moment.
I got up and looked at him. That was Murad. My Murad. Who introduced himself to me as a military officer, he was the Sultan of the Ottoman Empire.
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- Aleksandra, I hope you are now convinced that the Sultan is not some fat old man. - He said smiling at me and putting his hand on my cheek.
I couldn’t believe what I was experiencing at this point. How could he lie to me like this? How could he do this to me?
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- You, Murad, you lied to me. For two months I lived in lies and your empty promises. How could you do that? - I yelled at him and walked away from him, removing his hand from my cheeks.
- Alexandra, if I had told you right away that I was the Sultan, everything would have been different. When we go somewhere, like we went to Odessa to buy you, I must not show who I am. That would put me and my life at risk. - He told me confused because of my reaction. He certainly did not expect such a reaction from me. In a calm tone he tried to explain everything to me, but in my eyes he fell.
- Then why couldn't you tell me that on board? You blinded me with stories of how you would save me from here. Why did you make up to marry me? Why? - I yelled at him while I was on the verge of tears. I have never felt so betrayed and hurt in my life.
- Calm down, Alexandra. My goal was not to lie to you or let you down. If I hadn't gone on the campagin, you would have known immediately who I was. This is how things have changed. - He said he came closer to me, but I was just moving away from him.
- For the first time in my life, I felt emotions towards someone, towards you. And I'm so sorry about that. That kiss, all that, it was all a lie. You didn't really want any of that. Why did you tell me to wait for you today and you didn't show up anywhere? Why did you want to hurt me so much? - I told him walking away from him. With each of his steps toward me, I took a step closer to the wall. My eyes were filled with tears. I didn’t want to show my emotions, but I couldn’t stop them either.
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- Everything I told you on the ship I meant. I never felt anything like someone towards you when I kissed you. - He said approaching me calmly.
My heart ached watching him and realizing how stupid and naive I was to believe him in everything he said.
- I want to get out of here. - I told him looking at him with a disappointed look like never before.
- Why? - He asked me a little worriedly.
- Because I don’t want to be around the person who lied to me and made a fool of me all the time. Because I don't want to look naively blind to those believers. Because you hurt me more than anyone ever did. - I told him as I tried to wipe the tears from my eyes.
- That's why I won't let you go, because I want to make you forgive me everything that happened. Because I know it’s my fault for it all, and that wasn’t my original intention. - He told me when he came so close to me that our bodies clung to me and I could feel his breath on me.
- Now it is too late. - I said to him as I watched him deeply in his beautiful brown eyes.
- It is not, Aleksandra. - he said and looked at me with passion in his eyes.
He brought me closer to the wall so she couldn't get away from him and put his hands on my cheeks. He kissed me passionately at that moment like never before. He wouldn't let me get away from him.
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As angry as I was at him, I was taken aback after that kiss. How many feelings were in me at that moment. At the same time I would ran away from him because I was angry on him, and at another I would give him myself full because of passion I had for him at that moment.
