MIHRIŞAH SULTAN ✔️

45th Chapter

Two months have passed since Mehmed has been killed by orders of his father Sultan Murad Khan.

Mehmed's favourite Gulnuş Sultan was sent to the Old Palace, while I took care of my grandson Murad.

Mehmed's secret crush, free woman Azize gave birth to a daughter named Neslihan. Azize promised me for loyality and we decided it would be the best to keep it in secret.

I sent her money every month to make sure my granddaughter Neslihan has a good life. I knew she would life more carefree and more easily being outside of the Palace and all the hell this Palace brings to the people.

I was spending every night with my beloved husband Murad in his chambers, that I could barely time find to rule over the Harem.

I wanted to be with Murad as his sickness showed a lot of bad progress, unfornatley. I knew I could lose my Murad every day, and I wasn't ready for that.

That night was the special night, because it was excatly 20 years since the day Murad and I met for the first time.

" I remember the day I saw you Alexandra, like it was yesterday." Murad said as we were on his terrace, and he was laying in my lap as he was so weak.

" You haven't called me Alexandra for years." I said to him and blushed at the mention of those days.

" My Alexandra, my Mihrişah. You are center of my world. I think my life would have no sense if I would not have met you. You lighted up my world like no one else could have done it. Only with you I could have been the real me, just how I am. I never had to act in front of you. You were the only one who accepted me just for who I am, unlike others." Murad said and smiled to me.

" If I could have more lifes Murad, I would wish to spend each of my life with you. With you I lived through everything, happiness and pain. But you were always with me and I always felt safe next to you." I said to him and holded his hands.

" I know I have done bad things to you. I will never forgive myself for what I wanted to marry Farya just because of political alliance, and by that way I hurted you. I want you to forgive me for each time I hurted you. For each concubine I called and you were hurt. No one of them could compare to you, because you were the only one I loved. I want to apologise you for banishing you to Old Palace for three months. I want you to forgive me for all my sins my love." Murad said to me as he was too weak now.

" I forgive you everything my love, will you forgive me for my sins?" I asked him.

" I forgive you everything." Murad said and started coughing, and then holded my hand even more strongly.

" I want you to make our children remember me only for the good things. I don't want them to remember their father as a murderer and a cold person." Murad said to me and kissed my lips gently.

" Your children will always remember you as the best possible father, my Murad." I said to him and tried to stay strong as I knew this would be the last time I am spending with him.

" I want you to know that I loved you more than anything in this world. I hope you will always remember Murad who might have been Sultan of the whole world, but would be a slave for your love." Murad said and he was talking so slowly from all the weakness.

" Murad I don't want you to leave me, I need you in my life. I can't live without you. Nothing will make sense anymore." I said to him as tears started going down my face like crazy.

" Children need you, my love... Take care of them... I will always look at you and protect you... " Murad said and at that moment he just stopped breathing.