Different Sides To The Same Story

Chapter thirteen - Lilith Pearson

   It's been a week and a half since Jason cut off our friendship. I thought the pain would get easier but it hadn't, only worse, and more clear. I don't think I'm in love with Jason. I am in love with him.

I didn't make up with my old friends. I can't see them as I used to. I see them as horrible people. I should've seen them for who they were before now, but Jason opened my eyes to it.

Later that night that Miles picked me up he tried to kiss me. I was crying to him about a different guy and how heartbroken I was and he tried to take advantage of my state. So after that day I cut teathers with him too.

I didn't even look as I walk around the corner bumping straight into someone and sending us both to the floor. I look up, seeing Callie sit up and dust herself off. "I'm sorry, I wasn't looking where I was going." I tell her.

She blinks at me, "Oh Lilith. It's fine, don't worry about it. I actually wanted to talk to you about something." She tells me.

I've been avoiding her and the rest of Jason's friends. "Oh?" I say, trying to think of what she could be talking to me about.

"Jason may hate me for this but I hope someday he'll realize I did it for him." She says.

"Okay yeah, lets talk." I tell her, kind of concerned. As some more students pour down the hall she pulls me to the side, next to the wall.

"Jason loves you." She tells me. She must be confused with the whole fake dating thing, Jason wouldn't have come clean about us not actually dating.

I shake my head, "No he doesn't, you don't know all the details-" She cuts me off by touching my shoulder.

"I know you guys didn't actually date." She blurts out.

I furrow my brow, "He told you?"

"No, I figured it out." She corrects. I open my mouth to say something but she beats me to it, "I'm telling you this because he's suffering, and if there's any part of you that loves him back then fucking go for it." She tells me, my eyes widen in shock, he actually loves me back.

"I don't know..." I trail off.

"If you're hurting half as much as I know he is, then it's worth it." She tells me. Instead of answering her I simply smile as I turn and walk away.

I hate to think of Jason in pain, I love him and I want him to know it. I thought I meant nothing to him but maybe I did. I can't stop replaying Callie's words in my head, he loves me. Him. The womanizer himself.

I know he's not at school, I know because I saw him leave this morning, and as much as I wanted to go after him the only thing that kept me to my seat was knowing he didn't care about me. But turns out he does. Or he did. Shit. I didn't even think of the possibility he's over me.

I keep walking, I'm not being a coward this time, I've already felt my broken heart all these ten days. It can't hurt more than this. It can't.

I grab a taxi taking it to his house. Through the whole taxi ride part of me is trying to psych myself out. But I won't let it.

I arrive at his house just as it starts to rain. I pay the driver as I step out of the car, rushing to his door so I don't get totally soaked. But I can't care less when I do. I reach the safety of his porch, knocking on his door.

"Lily?" He questions when he answers the door.

I don't waste time on stupid words I'd mess up as I take a step forward, putting my cold hands around his neck and pulling him towards me, kissing him.

The kiss reminds me of one of the many reasons I love him. His hands find their way to my waist as he turns his head deepening the kiss. Before he pulls back, "Lily?" he questions his voice breaking in the middle.

I look him dead in his beautiful eyes, "I love you."