Evanstan One shots

Haze pt.3

WARNING: DRUGS, STORY ABOUT SEXUAL ASSAULT, AND PTSD

The manager taking the second half of my shift is probably the best thing to ever happen.
I feel like I finally had happiness.

I'm laying down on the couch while Scarlett scrolls through her phone, laying my chest. Apparently it was just one of her things. A way of saying she was comfortable with us all. Sebastian and Scarlett were far from being a couple.
Sebastian and Anthony headed to grab some food so it was just her and I.

She turned off her phone and turned her body. She was now still laying on my chest, facing me while resting her chin on her hands. "So Golden Boy", the redness in her eyes and the dazed look made her seem so beautiful but I could see if she wanted to, she would break and breakdown hard.
" What are you running from?"
I furrowed my eyebrows, "what?"

"Come on. We had a few old friends but you have stayed and kept up with our sessions. You're running. Just like us"
I chuckle. We're reading each other, trying to break each other down.
"I just don't love life exactly."
"We all don't. But there's more", she sat up where she was now sitting on my waist, looking down like a predator trapping it's prey.

I look off at the ceiling then back at her. I'm in deep to where revealing what I'm running from is not important to hide.
" I deal with a lot of anxiety. My parents always wanted me to be perfect. Anything less was a disappointment. I could have done better"
"That's why you treat your minimum wage night shift like royalty."
I nodded as she smirked, she was happy she guessed right.
"Oh golden boy.", she grabbed my chin gently, " It sucks. When parents believe they're right. Through and through. You're not depressed. You're just going through a phase. Your life perfect"
Tears suddenly appeared on Scarlett, "Scarlett, are you okay?" I sat up as she shifted to my lap.
"But my life wasn't perfect. Everytime I wanted something I had to... Do favors for my dad"

I quickly grabbed her and pulled her down to my chest. She cried silently in my shirt, letting her tears soak in it. I pet her head, "it's okay. You don't have to continue. You're safe."
I held her for a moment until she rose up. Not single tears left and with her high on, you couldn't tell she had been crying unless you looked hard enough.

"You're a good guy, Chris", she ran her fingers through my hair as I gave her a small smile. "Thank you"
She smiled back, "don't be so hard on yourself. You're free. Or at least for a while", she suddenly grabbed my arms and pinned them down on the couch.
She was testing me.

I instinctively flip her on her back on the couch and hovered over her, pinning her wrist above as her legs were wrapped around my waist, "I make that choice myself, sweetheart"
She smiled.
We then hear the door open and see Anthony walk in with Sebastian following close behind. Anthony looks at us as Scarlett flips over and looks at them.
"Whoa, did we interrupt a moment?"
Anthony laughed as Sebastian appeared to ignore the position of us on the couch. I get up and help Scarlett stand up too. "No. He's not my type"
"I sure am though", Anthony winked as Scarlett grabbed his chin, "Of course, my love"

She then grabbed the stuff from Sebastian as she whispered into his ear. Anthony grabbed me, "come here. I wanna show you something"

I follow Anthony, leaving Sebastian and Scarlett to themselves. It seems that they needed to talk privately.
We pass by two cars in the driveway, one being Sebastian's and the other being whoever else lived with Sebastian.
I follow Anthony to the trunk of his car which was parked in front of the house by the curb. He starts to open the trunk, "if I see a dead body-"
Anthony raised his hand, "I'm smarter than that, Evans. You won't witness one unless you're next in line."
I didn't feel better at what he was going to show me.

He then opened the trunk all the way and pulled a blanket back just enough for me to see. It wasn't your usual weed as Anthony always had. It was cocaine. He had about 5 pounds stacked on one another.
"Holy shit, Anthony. What the hell?"
Anthony covered it back up and closed the trunk. "Now let me explain"

"What the fuck? Weed is one thing but this is.... ", I could feel the anxiety trying to fade the high. "I know. I know."
"What the fuck?!"
Anthony grabbed me, "listen. I'm trusting you. You're the only one who knows but that's because I may need you for something if shit goes sour, okay? But right now, you didn't see anything, you don't anything"
I stared at him until he jerked me, "repeat. 'I didn't see anything, I don't know anything' "
I then finally spoke, "I didn't see anything, I don't know anything."

He nodded and locked his car then pushed me back to the house.

Anthony walks down to the door then turns around and immediately pushes me back up the steps. "What the-", I looked at him confused, "Unless you wanna breathe in tension, I suggest waiting"
He led me over to the patio where some neat outside furniture brought more light to the home. "This is cute"
"Yeah. Seb's mom was a true decorator"

We sat down on one of the benches, facing a well kept garden. "Is it normal for Scarlett to be physically affection the way she expresses it?"
Anthony smiled, "it is. She's just needing some gentle touches and we of course can't say no. I can't."

I look at him, "you love her?"
"Don't we all?"
"You know that's not what I mean"
Anthony chuckled, "it's one of those scenarios where we're better off as friends. Soulmate type friendships."
I nodded.

"Did she ask you what you were running from?"
I nodded, "being perfect is what I told her"
He nodded back, "high expectations can really fuck up your head"
"What are you running from?"
Anthony relaxed back in his seat, "shit. Ptsd."
I look at the sky while listening, "yea?"

"Yeah. I was bullied a lot and then one day, a group of kids, I guess, kidnapped me. Kept me locked away for days. Torturing me. Taunting my family.", he then lifted his shirt, showing different sizes of scars on his torso. "Barely was alive when they found me"

I look down, "it's so bad that I can't sleep alone. So when I met Sebastian, he was so kind enough to let me share that bedroom with him"
I smiled a bit.
"So I've been living with Sebastian because with the night terrors, my parents couldn't handle it. They meant well but they don't support me being a dealer and going into the druggie life but when it's your only escape from trauma along with might terrors. What else is there? I can't go to mental wards. Too much anxiety."
I nodded once more, "I'm sorry you had to go through that, Anthony"
Anthony shook his head, "you're okay. I think ever since you joined our little family, you became the glue we were missing."
I chuckle softly, "thanks. I love being around you guys."

*******
It was clear to come back into Sebastian's basement home. We walk in to see Scarlett gaining back her high and Sebastian just sitting at the table starting at a coke can. "Sebastian, no matter how hard you look at it, it's not gonna move.", I chuckle a bit trying to joke to brighten his mood. Sebastian looks at me and smiles then moves the can with his hand and gasps, "what?"
I chuckle more and sit with him at the table while Scarlett and Anthony stare intently at Scarlett's phone.

I look at Sebastian, "everything alright?"
Sebastian nodded. I decided to dip my toe in the water, "ya know? Wish you talked more. Your voice is really soothing to me"
I see him turn red as he looked down, "not much of a talker"
"You talked to me when we were all at the gas station"
He looks at me, his cheeks really matching the red in his eyes, "uh.. Yeah"
"Do I need to take you out a date for me to hear you talk?"
His eyes widen a bit as he turned more red, "uh... "
"Yes or no, Seb?"
I smiled.

___part 4 coming soon___