Evanstan One shots

Finding you pt. 3

A/N: THIS is a WHAT IF in what Chris continued on with the engagement. This took a moment to write. I started writing at 9:51pm. I will put down the result time at the bottom. Enjoy.

"No..I won't survive, Scarlett. I can't", i handed her back the invitation and locked myself back inside the apartment.

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I turned off my phone because i didn't hear updates from friends who didn't know about my feelings about Chris's and Dan's engagement party. I hear a knock at the door and slowly get up and answer it. I see a formally dressed Scarlett standing in front of me. "Hey Seb, i left early to hang out with you. I didn't want you to be alone in your thoughts.", i smile a bit, "Thanks but i'm okay-", she cut me off and walked in. "No, Chris wanted this.", i froze for a moment then close the front door. "Chris sent you.", i assumed but she looked at me with an offended look. "No. i went on my own choice. Chris only pushed me more. I told him i wanted to go because you were all alone. He said it would be for the best.", Scarlett set a big bag on the couch, i didn't realize she had it until she set it down. 

"Well, there's food in the kitchen.", i said as i sat back down on the couch, Scarlett looked at me, "I'm so sorry, Sebastian. I can't imagine what you're going through, sweetie.", she rubbed my arm sympathetically. "I'm okay, Scar....really. What else was Chris suppose to say? Wow, let leave my year long boyfriend for you.", i sighed, "i was too late. The moment he walked in, holding Dan's hand, i knew it was far too late. Now there's not turning back.", i rubbed my face. 

Scarlett looked down then back at me, "Seb. They're only engaged. Not exactly legally married yet. There could be a chance of trying to win him.", i laughed a bit and looked at her, "Scar. He told me. He said so himself he couldn't do that to Dan. Not this.", i look back at the tv, "Chris is a committed guy. There's not much of turning back in his mind.", i get up, silently groaning to myself. "I guess i should just go to bed. Hoping i wake up and it was a bad dream.", i look at Scarlett, "You know where everything is.", she nodded and smiled. I smiled back and went to bed. 

*Chris's POV--at party*

Scarlett approached me after Dan had told his speech and everything else, "Hey Ev. I'm gonna head over to Sebastian's apartment. He doesn't deserve to be alone. At least not at this moment.", her face had no emotion but her voice sounded sad. "Of course. He needs the company. I would prefer someone to be with him with this going on.", i felt a sense of guilt in my gut as Scarlett nodded, "I'll see you later, Ev. Congrats.", i smiled, "Thanks, jo.", she rolled her eyes, laughing a bit then left.  I then feel the guilt grow in me as i remember Sebastian finally confessing to me and me doing the same. 

But i can't do this to Dan. I was going to talk to him about it but of course on the day i wanted to say something, he proposed. I was in shock, i couldn't say no. 

I feel Dan's hand on my shoulder, "You feeling okay, babe?", i faked a smile at him, "of course. Why wouldn't i be?", he sat down next to me, "Hey, if you're worried about wedding plans, there is none. I got everything in order. Just some agreements to adjust but, that's it. I love you.", i've had this thing when it comes to those words but i noticed a great difference. From Dan, it sounded flat, felt nothing, and the words were just there to look pretty. But from Sebastian, it was flowed with sweet and tender reality of feelings. Sounded like a damn melody. I looked at Dan, "Love you too.", he kissed me which again, felt and tasted flat against my lips. Dan apparently didn't realize i didn't kiss back much because he pulled away and smiled like nothing was wrong.

Would Sebastian noticed if he did that?

He probably would.

*Sebastian's POV*