Evanstan One shots

Couldn't Happen

I didn't leave my office for any reason.

I just ignored the quiet growling my stomach was making while the slight pitch of hunger pain comes along with it. I refuse Scarlett's attempts on getting me out or trying to get me to eat. But I shoot her down because the last thing I want to do is come face to face with Sebastian.
I spent the last hours of my day, debating with myself if I should go and clear my name or just accept that I look like a complete asshole to Sebastian for God only knows how long.

One sounds easy yet image damaging. The other may be difficult but become easier.

I realize I have to come to the decision soon as Scarlett was closing up for the day meaning we all need to go home.

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I sat in my car, still not wanting to make this decision. Sebastian had beaten me home as I saw his car parked in his spot just a couple down from mine.
This is where I die or regret, depending on the choice I make.

I finally just get a burst of courage and get out of my car. I walk to where the side walk splits. I either turn to my apartment or to his. I can't just stand here because it would draw too much attention. I don't need the neighbors wondering why a grown man is just staying in between the complex buildings.
I turn towards Sebastian's apartment and approach the door. I felt like it was getting hotter as I was walking closer.

I hesitantly knock on the door, the deja vu causing the anxiety. But Liz said Annalise left but the familiar feeling of everything was almost too much to handle. I was about to just walk away but I heard the lock click, meaning someone was on the other side.
Sebastian opened the door and shockingly, he smiled at me. Not a forced one you give to people you hate but have to tolerate but the type of smile that was welcoming.
"Hello, Chris. Come on in."

I entered the apartment, mentally preparing to see anything that may remind me of my crime but the Salmon-colored couch was gone along with the pillows did not match. The coffee table was different. Every decor was a simple gray and white color scheme. The apartment seemed calmer and quieter.
I looked around and walked in slowly.

"Don't be a stranger, Chris. Have a seat on the couch."
His tone was a soft and gentle one but the sentence came off as taunting and threatening.
I sit on the gray couch and it was a lot comfortable than the other one. Probably because it didn't remind me.
I felt my leg bounce as he took the separate chair that was apart of the living room set and moved it in front of me.

"Chris. I want to hear from you what happened."
I looked at my hands, "it seems you already know what happened."
He shifted in his seat, "I want to hear from you"
I look up at Sebastian, his face was full of concern yet guilt.
"I had helped her get a rodent out of here. I was gonna straight home afterwards, I promise. But she was persistent on giving me a drink. I didn't want it but I didn't want to seem rude. I didn't trust her but I was worried so I stayed.... I shouldn't have stayed"

"What were you worried about?"
I kept eye contact and I could hear my breath being shaky, "this... Wasn't the first time she's tried to... "
I pursed my lips together then spoke again, looking away, "expect that time, she didn't, I don't know, drugged me."

He grabbed my hand and I could feel myself stiffen. "She was testing to see if she can get you sober and when that failed, she tried to go bigger. Chris, I'm so sorry. This is my fault"
I looked at him, "no I shouldn't have stayed. I could pushed her off earlier but-"
"At the first moment of realization, your arms felt ten times heavier."
My eyes widen as more guilt filled his, "I know. She tried to do the same thing to Mackie. But I did the wrong thing and gave her a second chance. That's why Mackie absolutely hates her and kind of can't stand me very much. But he stays my friend because our friendship. But after she made the same move to you.... I couldn't give her another chance. I shouldn't have given her one in the first place. It would have avoid you feeling this way."