it always goes back to you (Poetry Collection)

(42) sideline kinda love

the hardest thing to watch

is see someone you love

love someone else

i know right now i'm not my best self

i've been doing yoga

writing my thoughts down

but life simply isn't the same

when you're not around

paint a smile on my face

but my feelings

remain the same

you can try

to change your mind

but the heart

decides for you

it wants what it wants

and i'm stuck -

loving you

should i send a song?

walk away?

write a letter?

shut my mouth?

wait it out?

confess?

i know you don't feel the same

but still my heart

aches for change

and seeing you

in the same room

different hair

different face

but to me

you'll always be the same

known you since eighth grade

moving on

i try, i cry

through the months

i feel the same

i see your name in the stars

a hollow space fills my heart

i feel your soul in it

parts of you never left

along with the bittersweet memories

i wonder

did you ever feel the same?

want to tell me something

you'd think would become a regret?

ever think about me

when staring at the ceiling

in the comfort of your bed?

make impulsive thoughts

run through your head?

we could've been something special

i waited.

had to make the move

but you moved away

checkmate

left me bruised

and the days are changing

along with the weather

and they start to get warmer

it was hard

but at least now

it doesn't break my heart

when i look into your eyes