I'll Be the Light

Chapter 21

I woke up to soft sunlight streaming in through my white curtains, and a warm hand gently stroking my hair. I slowly turned to see Annie with a small, sad smile curving her lips.
"Good morning beautiful. I heard what happened," she said and scooted closer to me.
I groggily sat up as the memories flashed in front of my eyes, the pain still an ache in my heart.
"Yeah," was all I could say. That was all that she needed too, because she pulled me in for a hug and stroked my hair. It felt bitter sweet. This was the woman that Colton left me for, yet she was comforting me.
Unwanted tears fell from my eyes and soaked her green shirt. The memories of last night flooding my mind yet again and stabbing my aching heart. My throat swelled up and it was hard to swallow. My throat was raw from crying so hard the night before and crying now didn't help at all.
Annie stroked my hair and cooed into my ear, saying that it's all right. I needed her comfort. I needed her support and love. I was grateful for her presence.
My heart felt like it was tearing at the seems and I didn't have a needle and thread to sew it back together.
I was so done with pain. My whole has been nothing but pain and loneliness. I was always in the dark. From childhood I saw my life fade to black. Everything lost it's color and shine and everything was dead, even me. Nothing sparked my life. I wasn't a Christian at a time so I had no life support. Annie was all that I had, and she wasn't here 24/7.
Now I had found a light, a star, in this gloomy life and I had clung to it. I clung to it a little too hard and I got burned. Now I'll have the scar forever. I can't believe my idol, my light, my boyfriend left a scar like everyone else. How many scars until it ends?
Finally my sobs turned to whimpers and Annie pulled away, looking into my brown eyes.
"Genna. You're stunningly gorgeous, smart, and kind. Colton's missing out on something amazing," she soothed. There was still some venom left on my tongue and I couldn't stop the next comment from slipping past my lips.
"He's going to get something better though," I said and slapped my hand over my mouth. I hadn't meant to let that slip!
"What was that?" Worry creased her beautiful features.
"Nothing!" I failed to cover.
"Genna please just tell me."
"Fine. Colton left me for you," I grudgingly told her. Her eyes widened and her grip on me loosened.
"H-He left you for me?" She stammered, a slight blush creeping onto her cheeks. I sighed. She was just as infatuated with him as he was with her.
"Yeah. That's why I'm giving you permission to go out with him now." I didn't even realize that I had said the words. What was I thinking! Maybe I should take the words back, but I know I couldn't. I looked at her shocked expression and the happiness in her eyes, and I knew that I had done the right thing. If I couldn't be happy, might as well make someone else happy.
"Really?" She gasped. A smile slightly tugged at her lips.
"Yep! He's all yours," I nodded and gave her a weak smile. Why did it hurt so bad to make her happy?
"Thanks Genna! I'm going to get you so much ice cream right now!" She said and got up and left. I heard the jingle of keys and the door open and shut. When I knew I was alone, I laid back in defeat. At least someone was happy.

___________________________

Hey guys! It's been awhile since my last author's note and it feels good to do it again! How's everyone doing? Do you guys like the story? Comment please! Also I was thinking about doing shout outs so if you want one, comment or message me on Instagram! My name is genna_official on Instagram so go ahead and follow me or message me! I'll try answer when I can. I love you guys and thank you so much for reading!

-Genna