Tell Me You Love Me

Chapter 23

Bad things happen, but you have to move past it. Leave it behind. The sooner, the better. Or it'll eat away at you and stop you from moving forward.

-Miranda Bailey, Grey's Anatomy

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Callie's POV

I don't know what's happening but I can't move, we just stared at each other, our faces inches apart, I could see her moving very slowly towards me, my head and heart were racing. And just then, As if by pure luck my phone started ringing, which snapped me out of it.

"I best go" Carina smiled. Her face still so close to mine.

"erm..yeah okay" She leaned forward peck me on the cheek and stood up.

"thank you for listening, I'll see you soon" then she was gone. I just sat there thinking what the fuck happened. My phone started ringing again, I reached for the table and picked it up and answered it, happy to hear Arizona's voice on the other end.

"hey how you feeling" Arizona asks,

"yeah I'm okay, how are you"  I ask trying to sound normal.

"good and yeah I'm okay, what you been doing"

"just watching tele then fell asleep, how's work" I reply

"yeah it's okay quite busy, I miss you"

"I miss you too"

"I have to go back but I'll see you when I get home"

"okay, bye"

She hung up and I put my phone back on the table.  I sighed heavily as I flop backwards on the sofa, looking at the ceiling. How can I tell her me and Carina nearly kissed. How the hell can I go from hating someone to nearly kissing them. I sit there for a few minutes  before deciding to get up to get something to eat.  I wince a little as I stand up as my ribs are still a little tender and still cause me a little discomfort. I walked into the kitchen and made myself a sandwich. I'm not that hungry but I haven't eaten since this morning and I know Arizona will have a go at me if she knows I haven't eaten. The whole time  the conversation with Carina kept going around in my head. I never realised that it hurt me that she left. I always put it down to her hurting Arizona the way she did. I let out another deep sigh of frustration at the situation as I made myself a coffee. I cleaned up the sides then went back and sat on the sofa, then put Line Of Duty back on from the last bit I can remember before falling asleep. Before I knew it I hear the front door open. I looked at the time, I've been watching Line Of Duty for 3 hours. 

"hey" I look up and see Arizona walking into the living room.

"I'm so sorry I completely lost track of time" I said pausing the tv.

"it's okay, how are you feeling" she asks, giving me a kiss on the lips.

"better now you're home" I smile.

"good, let me get a quick shower and get changed then we can go get some food"

"okay" she gave me another quick kiss before getting up and going upstairs. I put the tele back on while I waited. A short time later she came back downstairs.

"ready" she asks.

"yeah' I turned the tele off then put my shoes on.

"pizza" she asks.

"sounds good, can we walk, can do with stretching my legs"

"okay" we got our coats and walked out the house. I took her hand in mine as we walked down the street. I love the feeling of having her hand in mine, it makes me feel safe. It's so nice being outside after being stuck inside all day, the fresh air feels so good. It was quite mild and the sun was slowly setting, making the sky look like it was on fire, which I think looks beautiful. We walked into the takeaway and the smell instantly hit me, making my stomach rumble. We look at the menu and ordered a pizza and chips. Luckily we didn't have to wait to long as it wasn't that busy. So within 15 minutes we left and started walking home. I could see someone walking towards us but I didn't take any notice until they got closer and I could see who it was. Shit

"Hey Arizona" Carina smiles.

"hey" Arizona grins

"hey Callie"

"hey" I say, trying to act normal.  Fuck. I feel so awkward and nervous. I can't even look at her. Arizona is going to know something is up.

"how are you both" she asks.

"We are good thanks" I spit out. Instantly regretting it and wishing I let Arizona answer. 

"good, Arizona I was meaning to ring you see If you want to meet up for a drink or something, Callie you can come to"

"thanks" I reply. I could feel Arizona's eyes on me. I seriously doing a really bad job of trying to act normal.

"yeah I'll call you " Arizona smiles. We said our byes and carried on walking home. I know Arizona could tell something was up but we didn't speak the rest of the way home. We got in and I headed to the kitchen quickly followed by Arizona.

"so are you going to tell me what that was about or are you going to pretend that it was nothing"

"What do you mean" I say getting cups out the cupboard.

" You back there with Carina " 

"I don't know what you mean"

"you was acting weird, you greeted her nicely, normally you walk away or snap. Don't think I didn't notice that you wasn't looking at her either" 

"can we eat I'm starving" I smile. I started to walk off into the living room, but she walked in front of me blocking the door.

"Callie" Arizona says

"tell me" I took a deep breath and put the food back on the counter.

"she came to see me earlier" she didn't say anything just waited for me to carry on.

"she wanted to talk so I let her in and she said how sorry she was for hurting you and stuff and that she's sorry for hurting me as well"

"Callie what happened" I could tell she was getting inpatient.

"we..well sort of had a moment" her face turned from annoyed to confused and sad. 

"wh..what"

"she erm well we nearly kissed, but we didn't I'm so sorry. I didn't know what was happening. We was talking then suddenly she was next to me, like really close, I couldn't move I was shocked at what was happening, then you rang and she got up and left" I spluttered out. 

"so if I hadn't rang you would have kissed her" tears were forming in her eyes.

"no, even if she kissed me I wouldn't have kissed her back" I reached forward to touch her but she moved away, which caused my eyes to tear up.

"Arizona please I'm really sorry I didn't know what was happening it happened really quickly, I was in a bit of shock at what she said and was in a little daze, I didn't register what was happening,  you know I'd never do anything to hurt you"

"it all makes sense" she snorted 

"what does"

"can't you see, she has feelings for you, I think she always has"

"no she doesn't"

"how can I be so stupid, she couldn't have you so she settled for me"

"don't be silly, we was just friends and she loved you any fool could see that" 

"I can't do this right now" 

"Arizona please" Before I could stop her she walked out the house. Tears started falling down my face. Just when things started to get good shit always happens and ruins it.