Tell Me You Love Me

Chapter 34

We sat there for a few moments until Callie finally managed to stop crying. I reached for the tissues on the table and handed her one. She wiped her face and laid her head back on my chest. I leaned back a bit so we was more comfy and carried on rubbing gentle circles on her back. So many thoughts kept running through my head and it was giving me a headache. A few minutes later April and Lexi walked back In with cups of coffee, Callie sat up and took one from Lexi and April handed me the other.

"you okay" Lexi asks Callie. 

"not really no" 

"I don't really know what I'm supposed to do" she sighed. 

"well I think you should try and get some sleep first and then decide tomorrow" April said. Callie just nodded. I could tell she hadn't been sleeping well when I first saw her, the bags under her eyes gave it away. But I guess that makes 2 of us.

"could you take me home" Callie asks Lexi. 

"I will, if you like" I said before Lexi could answer. Callie looked at me with complete surprise, After a few seconds she nodded. We finished our coffees and stood up to leave.

"thank you Lexi" Callie said as she stood up, hugging her.

"anytime, you'll be okay" she smiled. We said our goodbyes and I helped Callie into my car and we drove in silence back home. It's only been a week since I was here last but feels like ages. We got out the car and Callie unlocked the door. I could feel a twinge in my heart as I walked into the hallway. Even though I'm being here for Callie and even though I know the truth I can't help but still feel hurt and pain from the whole thing, even more so knowing what happened to her. Callie went straight into the living room and I followed her. I stood at the door in shock at the sight of the living room. I couldn't believe what I was seeing. There was pillows and a blanket on the sofa,  empty wine bottles scattered around the floor, empty glasses on the table, empty pizza boxes and take out containers on the floor, It was a mess and it smelt a bit musty. 

"what's all this Callie" I ask as I walked further into the living room.

"Oh erm, I've been meaning to clean up" She said as she sat on the sofa.

"have you been sleeping on the sofa" I asked even though I could tell she had been, again she just nodded.

"why" 

"because I can't bare to sleep in our bed without you" she said looking at me. I had to blink away the tears that were forming in my eyes. 

"Callie" I sighed sadly. I know I've been bad but I've had April to help me and look after me, Callie hasn't had anyone. At first I didn't really care because she broke me and only had herself to blame, but now...knowing what I know now, it breaks my heart that because none of this is her fault.  She didn't say anything just laid down and pulled the cover over her. It's killing me seeing her like this. I sighed and went into the kitchen taking some of the empty glasses with me. I put them in the dishwasher and got a clean glass and filled it with water, I also grabbed a few bin bags and went back into the living room. 

"here" I handed Callie the water. She sat up and took it from me. I then started to clean up all the rubbish that was scattered around the floor and table. 

"Arizona, you don't have to do that" Callie said.

"I do, I can't live in a pigsty" 

"you left" she said tears forming in her eyes.

"I know, but you need me so I'm coming back" 

"why" she cried. I couldn't tell if it was sad tears or happy tears or both. I sighed and sat next to her.

"Look Callie, I'm going to be honest. Even though I know what really happened and that you didn't cheat on my, I'm still hurting. But you need me and that is more important then anything right now. So I'm staying and we will get through this together" She nodded as tears silently ran down her face. It was taking all my will power not to lean in a kiss her. 

"come on, lets get you to bed" 

"I'm okay sleeping here" she said

"Callie we both know that it isn't that comfy to sleep on so come on" I said standing up holding my hand out. 

"I can't" she said looking down at the floor

"I'll come with you" She looked up and hesitated for a few seconds before reaching up and grabbing my hand. We walked up stairs and went into our room. I got me and Callie some pj's out of the cupboard and then I went into the bathroom to get changed. Mainly because I don't think I could cope seeing her undress. After a few minutes I went back out and saw Callie sat on the bed, staring blankly at the floor. 

"come on get in" I said as I pulled my side of the blankets back. She stood up and I could tell she was hesitant to get in.

"I don't deserve this after what I did" she whispered. I could only just make out what she said.  I reached over and grabbed her arm and gently pulled her onto the bed. I laid down pulling her down with me, pulling her into a cuddle so she could rest her head on my chest. 

"You did nothing wrong" I whisper as I gently stroked her head. After a few minutes I started to hear quiet little snores letting me know she had fallen asleep. I gave her a little kiss on the head and closed my eyes as I let the darkness take over. 

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