Tell Me You Love Me

Chapter 30

Arizona's POV

I just stood at the door, tears streaming down my face. I can't believe what I have just seen. How could Callie do this to me. She didn't say anything she just stood there staring at me, swaying from side to side. I couldn't bare to see her face anymore, I turned around and ran out of the club, pushing past people, ignoring the calls from the girls as I went past them. I got outside and ran up the street, I didn't get far before I stopped and vomited, not sure if it was the alcohol or what I just saw that made me physically sick, or both. I couldn't breath, my chest was hurting, tears were just pouring out of my eyes. I leaned against the wall and collapsed on the floor, as I buried my head in my hands.

"Arizona" I looked up and saw April running up to me.

"what's happened" she asks, crouching down, putting her arm around my shoulders.

"Can you take me back to yours" I cried

"yeah of course" She pulled out her phone and called a taxi.

"I left my stuff inside" I said

"okay, wait here" she ran off back into the club and within minutes she returned with my stuff, just then the taxi pulled up, we got in and headed to Aprils. Once we got to Aprils she made us both a coffee and sat next to me on the sofa.

"what happened" she asked again.

"last week one of mine and Callie's patients was hitting on her,  she was wasted, so we both just ignored it, I mean it happens all the time. I recognised her straight away, I mean they aren't many red heads.  But tonight..." tears started spilling from my eyes again as the images filled my mind.

"I walked in on them fucking each other in the bathroom" 

"Oh Arizona, I'm so sorry, but she was pretty wasted though" 

"oh so that makes in ok" I snap.

"no, no deffinitely not, it's no excuse" 

"how could she do this" I cried.

"shhh" April coed as she pulled me into a hug.

"come on, lets get you changed and into bed, okay" I just nodded. I followed her upstairs and changed into a top and pair of shorts that April gave me. I crawled into her spare bed and just laid there, silently crying as I replayed it all in my head. Her hand in the red heads pants, the red heads fingers inside Callie, both of them moaning, kissing, the blank look on Callie's face as she saw me there, no regret, not shock. She didn't even say anything, she didn't come after me...nothing. 

I don't know how long I laid there, replaying it all over in my head as tears ran down my face,  but next thing I know I opened my eyes and wince at the light shining through the window, it was morning.  It took me a few seconds to register where I was and then I remembered the reason why I was at Aprils, tears started to fill my eyes as the pain the my chest reappeared. I stayed there crying for a while before I decided I best get up. I forced myself to get out of bed and walk downstairs. I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror in the hallway. I looked awful, my eyes bloodshot and puffy, my hair all over the place, my skin pale. 

"morning" Aprils half smiles as I walk into the kitchen.

"how are you feeling" she asks pouring me a cup of coffee.

"like my heart has been ripped out my chest and crushed into a million pieces" 

"Arizona, I'm so sorry, listen, you can stay here as long as you need" 

"are you sure" I reply as I take a sip of coffee.

"of course"

"would you mind taking me over later so I can pick up a few things" I ask

"yeah, I've got a few things to do this morning but I'm free this afternoon"

"thank you

"Lexi is gonna come over, I told her what happened, I hope you don't mind but I don't want you on your own, help yourself to whatever you want okay, I'm only a phone call away and I'll be back in a couple of hours" 

"okay" she hugged me and left. I poured myself another coffee and went at sat on the sofa. Just as I turned the tv on the front door opened and Lexi walked in.

"hey" she said, sympathy and pity evident on her face.

"hey"

"come here" she said as she sits next to me and pulls me into hug. 

"have you spoken to her" she asks a few minutes later. I just shook my head.

"I've never seen her like that yano, I'm not making excuses, but it took 3 of us to get her home and into bed, we found her on the floor in the bathroom"

"she clearly had too much to drink" I said  a bit harshly, even though inside I care and want to know if she is okay, but the hurt and anger was controlling me.

"maybe, but still" she said

"I am sorry Arizona, really, what are you going to do" She asks. It was then that I realised I have no idea.

"I don't know Lexi, I love Callie more then anything but I don't know if I can be with her after what she has done, how can I forgive her...trust her again, she promised she would never hurt me after what happened with Carina" My face was covered with tears and they just kept pouring from my eyes.

"what happened with Carina" Lexi asks.

"they almost kissed but I rang Callie at that moment so they never did, She said she would have never done it even if I hadn't rang, but now I don't know. How can I believe anything she says after this"

"I know nothing anyone will say will make any of this any easier but know you aren't alone in this, you have us, none of us are going anywhere" I leaned in and just cried into her shoulders.

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thoughts? not 100% sure with this chapter but hope you all like it